Monthly Archives: July 2011

notify people to receive package with blog posts and info to follow through with the prosecution and changing of laws)

 Called Clliff sterns office  in Washington and spoke  with   his intern, Summer, who  told me she  will look for the  package to make sure that congressman sterns receives the info.  I also mentioned to her if she planned on becoming a member of congress to make sure  that  laws  are passed to protect people  from the  fraud.  I asked her to make sure  to remind  congressman sternsand others  how important it is to enforce  the  phone act and  to create stronger penalties.  

sat. july 30th 2011 @ 1:02pm ( still nothing settled to change outcome for my home situation)

I went yesterday to meet with a lawyer  and see if an injunction  can be ordered by; a judge and stop or post pone  the  transfer of title…   i showed her the paperwork  had on the condo and then we pulled up a ton of other stuff on me and the condo….   it is a total mess….  i even went to the church to say my novena… and ask the priest  to bless my lottery tickets…  but i’m tired.. and no one is helping.. can’t seem to get through to anyone… and the people  i get a hold of can’t seem to help…  

 

I contacted pat Blackwell on Facebook and he  said his dad judge Backwell is retired and all his friends are retired.. and  cant help… bottom line even though i keep being told  that my friends and family really love me… no one can help… and it is not like them… but i’m stuck talking to whoever is on the phone and whatever  they tell me… i still feel sick to my stomach and have already cried a few times today… but   everyone i speak with thinks that it is still  alright that  have been through  the worst experiences  of my life.. for the past  8 years…. and  that one more  horrible experience wil be just  fine ..  i wont be but no one really cares..its just words…  so i thought i should put it out here.. all the horrible experiences and what people told me.. and how they tried to justify that  it was o.k. to sacrifice my life…my  businesses… my hopes and my wants and my dreams…   i want to write all of the truth.. because stories seem to get all mixed up  when you can t defend them.. and i’m sure there  will be tons of lies and horrid stories told… one asshole wanted me to go through bad experiences and use the  inf  to  write a book using my email address as the title…  you know WHATABTMARY…. OR MAYBE HE WAS GOING  TO SPELL IT OUT AS THE  OTHER EMAIL ADDRESS CREATED BUT NOT MINE…. WHATABOUTMARY….  who knows.. everyone had a reason  to use me.. i guess if it wasn’t the con artists trying   to  scam money..by putting me through hell… it was some really mean and evil peole who actually liked to see me cry or do without or whatever…       don’t get me wrong there were people on my side… who were great and wonderful and to them i send love and  thanks…. but i totally understand… they are probably tired of  helping  when all it  seems to be are bad experiences…  they probably want  all of it stopped as much as i do…. 
so lets start from the  very beginning..  when i owned my own business was having a a great life but still wasn’t dating…. i mean  i was busy and really  picky..  I  still am in theory…  ( but after all of this who would want to date  me .. at least that is what one person told me over the phone… ) but  way back then…. i had nothing bad happen to me..  so it would have been so much easier …. way back then,,,,was probably a lot easier to have been able to  meet Mr right.. get married  and have a   family ….. which is something i always thought i would have had… i had actually had people tell me i would have made a great wife..or was  it a great  girlfriend….  
anyway.. that is not how anything went… it was suggested to me… to go and speak with this  lady Leslie.. to see why i was having such a tough time  finding  mr right.. i was so suggestible .if anyone suggested for me to do anything..i did it… so i was not only gullible..and nieve.. but so innocent..i never realized that  this would open up the  door for  a whole  lot of horrible expereinnces and my life would never be the same… . so i did …I went  to  her office… and just talked like any of my friends on the phone…. i told her i was working a lot… what  my; hopes and dreams were… and there were really never any issues.. to discuss…  i loved talking on the phone.. and to  my friends…  not over issues.. no major problems… not really anything… changed in my life… in fact  i was so busy  we ended up just talking on the  phone…and it was like talking to a  friend to talk to … but it cost me $50.00 each week/..HA!   finally i just stopped that  gosh i wonder how much money i wasted on that ?   anyway in 2003 i had met Gerard and worked for his sister Christine in Marco island on  a home they had…  i guess it was partly because leslie had been  trying to get me to break out of my  strict beliefs of what i wanted to date and marry …. that i overlooked a really  bad guy and  though it was time to open myself to dating someone… who may not have fit into anything i wanted.. BIG MISTAKE…..    anyway wrote about  him threatening to kill my mom..( over the phone… ) how he ended up  scaring me.. on the  phone… ..and seemed to like it….  and .how my sisters met him and were basicaly appalled…   
hurt my family get ownership of my /our mortgages… and ruin my family  and our lives… ….  ( lovely right? ) anyway  the stress….. the fear…. the stomach aches… I lost 20-30 lbs… in  a really short time frame….    my step father  at eh time don kensig  told me that i should go and “hide out” at  a clinic for a few weeks for a break… i was to the point of crying  and upset and  my wold had changed from all happiness and friends  and  dreams and goals… and  businesses.. and just  plans for a great future….
 but getting upset losing weight… and yet still trying to make sure everything t was alright.. everything looked alright… still keeping  a business  running… and still trying to be a thoughtful and great sister, daughter , niece cousin, whatever…..people wanted me to be ….  so the series of unfortunate evens are clear in what happened i mean the actual events.. but as for  what happened first or net i think I  actually tried to block out a great deal… and that part may be a bit jumbled … so bear with  me…  
after losing the  weight..  i was told so many things… but I remember don kensig  told me  i need a place to go to be “safe”   that  i needed “a break” from  the people and stress and that I wasn’t   dealing well enough with it…   and  when he and my; mom went on   their honemoon  they decided to put me  a clinic while they were gone…. i want anorexic .. or bulimic… or anything .. but he actually told me”to play along”. 
all i wanted was for people to stop picking on me….
 i remember some really bizarre instances… like this guy have a director.com t-shirt… on .. and people talking about  how i could paint scenery  for a theater… or movies… or something…  and then i started to think that  the entire experience wasn’t for me  to hide out and be protected from gerard… or any of the threats but was some really weird experiences i just  wanted to get away from.
… but i couldn’t… leave…  so i guess  a place like that is where there  were some really  dysfuntional people…  and one girl i think her name was Ann… very sweet and nice … in fact she had a bob haircut like mine or got her hair cut like mine while i was there… and was teaching a guy who dressed like  girl to read…. anyway i though after i left i could just forget about it..never be labeled…. as having a problem( which i never did…. )   or have to go through anything ever again..it was embarrassing..in fact i have tried to keep all the experiences  of these last 8 years… the really bad ones…. I kept to my self… i didn’t want them used against me… and i didn’t want people to  ruin anymore of my   life  by  believing  a bunch of lies .. or let a bunch of horrible experiences define me or my life…. but each time i went though one more thing… it lowered my life my lifestyle and this housing thing is just too much… 
MY LIFE WAS SUPPOSED TO BE GREAT….. it wasn’t supposed to be like this at all and  i was not meant to be a “punching bag”  for these people to use to get money from my friends or colleges.. or to steal  anything… i am and was a real normal girl who had a basically happy disposition and  basically great life  and was working torwards a fantastic life….  a wonderful future…  and each year since  i met Gerard i have had to go though some  horrible experience… that seems to be directly related to a really horrible group of people that seem to be bent  harming me..whether it is stealing my possessions… or my business .. or even using my  relationships.. or just the  fact  that they isolate me form the people who love me  and  and  are my real friends… is a sign of abuse… let alone all the lies and bulling i have had to endure over the  phone.. in the mail and  in person…  then the lies that were told about me… lies i am still trying  to rectify…. but i cant… once a lie is out there..  it had been horrible to try to prove it is wrong…  
i think back and instead of actually being   good… and not lying or cheating or doing  anything illegal( o.k. a few speeding tickets… ) but I see the show weeds.. and other  shows that have people doing all sorts  of illegal occupations to get money.. or hurting people…  but yet they get away with it… and all i wanted to do was to have a great life… a great business.. and  loved my sisters.. my family, god, and friends… i loved nice things.. and planned to have a great life…  i knew it wouldn’t always be perfect.. but not these experiences…. these seemed to be mostly manipulated.. and   calculated… and done with malicious intent and done  on purpose….    sometimes i thought  people wanted  me out of my home.. like when they would want me to babysit  and then I  would  have something stolen.. or have my house  used ( like  someone  sleeping in my bed who left a Myrtle  beech golfing emblem… in my bed……  or someone  even using my food and eating diner… or worse yet entertaining in my home…    these were  all calculated instances of breaking the law.. usually harming me.. if not scaring me… or trying to get  me to move or to at the  very least get me out of my home…  someone  else can use it…  really rotten people… and  i can honestly say all this had destroyed my life.. 
so i know there times that people wer using me for all sorts of doctors visits.. when nothing was wrong… in fact one time a nurse said something about me having breast implants in an xray…. and   then not having breast implants… ( by the way i don’t have breast implants…. )  was it some insurance scam? or what putting a whole lot of info in a medical record… i still  hate  doctors and hospitals and any type of tests to this day…. 
but it seemed to be a horrid series of them…. with even don kensig giving me a present of medical insurance… so that he could make sure to keep having me got go through horrible experiences…  I think thee  people started to prey  on family and friends at this time.. for money… and started with all the lies… of course i was still running a business .. still keeping up my home.. my life.. and keeping quiet…..   pretending  that no one was  either threatening to do harm to me or having to be bullied into  experiences i never wanted….   
( side note.. i just got a call…. and  it was a person telling me i should  keep quiet about all of this…    i have kept quiet up until recently about most of the really bad stuff… or the experiences that really  changd me.. and  then people don’t  understand why i started sleeping with a night light  or when i had nightmares… or  how much these horrible experiences have changed my life.. my real life… oh they just called back to tell me that no one will ever want to date me as well… but i honestly think it is important to tell  the truth and its been too long keeping quiet … and letting  anyone and  every one harm my life… then threatening me that they will tell these horrid experiences.. and that no one will believe me.. that no one will like me or love me… or ever hire me… its been too long… and too much..  
I DID NOTHING WRONG   I DIDN’T DESERVE THIS….THIS WAS AND IS MY REAL LIFE…. I personally did not choose any of the horrible experiences.. and it wasn’t God’s will… it was a bunch of con artists… who sacrificed my life for  their  own selfish  benefit……  
i wanted to prosecute.. to make  sure  the people are held accountable and  responsible… that  they have to pay for their crimes.. and they are known so no one will ever have to go through any of this again…. 
 i also mentioned to my family that if anything should  happen to me they have all the information for a wrongful death suit… that no matter  what these people should be punished ……..
 
 So  after all  this… then it got even worse… honestly jsut always wanted to go back to a great and fun normal life…  i am not an actor.. or ever want to be… i am not a crimianl.. or a conartist… and nver wante to be…  but i had a great family, great friends, and some amazing experiences in my life….  
 i went to New York with my sisters  for my sister Maura’s birthday….  it was a horrible mistake… i was pretty thin about 100 lbs… but so are tons of women…  i ate.. just couldn’t eat as much…….after getting upset….. i didn’t   eat.. or i ran to get  rid of the anxiety… or if they really bullied me i ended hyperventilating… and  ended up  throwing up… anyway the trip ended up poorly &nb
sp;and 
  i came back to Naples early… and when  i was met at the airport…  people had other plans for me….   no vacation…. nothing nice… i was baker- acted….   it was taken to a floor that wasn’t  really being  used  in the hospital…  there were  sheets of plastic over the doors… and the weird thing was that one of the nurses looked like gerard…  the one who was really inquisitive about if i was pregnant and who had me take a pregnancy test…… (or  possibly she was a  part of his family)…. another odd thing this girl who was supposed to be anorexic.. was much heavier than i was….   when i noticed these things people got angry  with  me… as i was suppose  be quiet and  let anyone do anything they wanted to me.. and i wasn’t  supposed to ask questions.. or to make up my own mind about  anything …  but to do what i was told.. and just  wait….   
another weird thing was that  they had me take these classes… 
and  and  for the life of me i cant think of what reason they could  have  possibly used… there is specific criteria like harming yourself or others… i think I  was  thin ..defianatley  upset with situations…  and kept asking  for people to stop picking on me…. to stop harming me and my life…. 
this was the same  time frame when Gerard had  acused me of having an affair.. when i went to palm beach to see my sister almost each weekend… and told me he had been  told that i was dating some electrician who was Mexican… Also he accused me of being pregnant and that i was going  have an abortion…  so completely untrue…. i mean impossibly untrue….
  i am thinking  now that  the whole thing was a set up to see if i was pregnant..  to keep me somewhere  since i was still supposed to be in New York… or just to ruin more  of my life…   i mean did the  same  conartist group use  my home while i was away? ..Some  girls and boys had been using it…    when i went babysitting.. or when i went over to the other coast…   but to put me though hell..  and have me pay for the bill .. that seemed to  be the norm for these scummy people… and then on top of it all….  i was to keep quiet about it.. because  not only  did the events discredit my life.. me and my reputation.. but gave them fuel for more threats..  like threatening  to use…. the info to  harm me again….  to harm…me….. but once the group of people find out they can hurt me in one way.. they seem to repeat it again and again.. I actually had one person tell me it was to ” toughen me up” … well it did change me.. if that was the goal… but i don’t know if ruining my life was the goal.. if it was ..well then i guess like in  the immortal words of charlie sheen and  karn kahels  … “they won! they won!.”… they ruined a perfectly great life… and did it with malicious intent and with  calculated persistent…. 
stealing businesses.. and business files… and  personal items… and clothing and jewelry.. and everything else… keeping me away form begining   allowed to date.. to make new friends.. to  have dinner parties… to  just have a great life…. not fair… ….. i had someone on the phone tell  me once that  I had  had 36 years of a great life  and that is more than most people    …. 
so as in all the other horrible events  that have occurred…. on purpose…. they did  this same horrible experiences  three times in my live… i never had a drinking or drug problem…  i was never harming myself… or anyone else… or even threatening to harm myself or anyone else… they did not have witnesses.. to say that  they  saw me harming myself or any one else.. but because they were able to  do it once.. they did it again…  and once again i paid the bills for the horrible experiences.. .  what a shumck…. anyway… 
for 2007 someone was sending emails each and everyday to everyone i knew telling them how horrible i was…  even sent one to the priest … wanting to isolate me from any friend or family ember who actually liked me… or loved me for that matter….   i wanted to use those emails and the bully cards and mail sent  through the postal service  to prosecute ….  no one should have to go through that…. and after a full year of that type of email.. who  is going to believe me?  and they weren’t from my mom or from my friends …  and they weren’t on my behalf…. 
but its like the people who use my likeness… a girl  of 5 foot 4 height with  short blondish hair… from  the back could be anyone… so  i get thrown into  different families… or i am supposed to take on  certain problems.. or issues.. that I  never had…  and all of a sudden i have a  poor family.. or a mean family or  a family who hasn’t traveled….  to various countries.. or all sorts of things that  are different… its really nice when i have  a really nice and helpful people on the phone… people who  don’t  cut down my family  and who know maura is amazing.. and Mattie is remarkable…. who actually  encourage  hopes and passions.. and futures….  but because i am so average… average height, weight, looks…  people will manipulate me into a life and family ….. whether i asked for  the family or not… and that is that.. then i have to usually  try to correct 
anything that is wrong.. like  reminding  these people how remarkable my family is.. 
so there….. i said it… the  worst things possible to have gone through.. have happened and i have been terrified of it… especially when nothing was ever wrong with me.. i never needed any medication…. though  i think people wanted me to take drugs so I  woudl be “easier to handle”  i even had someone tell me they wanted me to go though  this because then i would be more  sympathetic  to dating a guy who had a drug or alcohol problem or was suicidal or  had other mental issue….  i guess a bit like carla  wanting me to marry her brother who had mental issues… because she thought i was patient enough and could  handle him and take care of him ….  
or like the time i took the teacher certification course..( that i paid one thousand dollars for)  i had one person tell me that matt dameon  married a teacher.. ( complete lie……… he married a bar tender right? ) anyway..  i took the course not for the fake reason of meeting someone who might want to date/marry  a teacher..( though i was told chris  did  marry a teacher) but because  the etiquette school needed a certified teacher to be able to create an internship prog
ram where we could  utilize all the   local talent in the colleges  and they could get college credit  and we could have some amazing people helping  with the school curriculum…. 
i was lied to a lot .. manipulated a lot….  an had a lot of people justify all  the horrid  expereinces i  had to through…. and not one of the experiences made me a better person… brought  a higher purpose to my life.. or enhanced my life in any way… or did they ever say they were sorry for what they did….. 
 if made  me fearful…  and  damaged everything….  you have no idea how it feel to have a bunch of people who don’t know you… or  care about you  try to figure out  what is wrong with you when there was nothing  ever wrong with me…  to have people decide because of all  these horrible experiences that i had to go though that  i am “damaged” or that  there must be something wrong with me.. so they go down the list… of  possible problems..  and will try to pin anything and everything  on me…  you have no idea what it is like to have  a group of people  harm your life on purpose…  instead of helping  my life… who are allowed  to say anything  they want and that is supposed to be the truth  even most of the time it is lies… and some of the lies have really damaged everything… 
 do you know  what it is like to prove you are competent?  that you  can and always have handled your  finances… your home   your business…..  i actually got a Westlaw account  after all of this.. so i could become more versed  in  legal knowledge  of cases and of the laws pertaining to  guardianship… of the responsibilities.. and how to stop it…. when you don’t need one…  basically how to gain your  life back…  ( if you look  up under the incidents… there were  cards sent and cards stolen  from my mail box… ( should have had the locks for that changed… never did… )  anyway…   part of this home association fee mess is that i thought the guardian  was still  involved…. and taking care of things… at this point i was  completely and utterly disgusted with  everything.. everything i had been though .. and everyrthng   that was messed up and jsut couldn’t seem to be fixed…. 
i guess there shouldn’t be as much of a stigma   when someone has bullied  you  the point of losing 30 lbs.. and people  are worried that you can’t handle “it” anymore  and  they put you in a facility because they think ae suicidal… but in truth… it changes everything.. even when its not yoru fault..even when you didnt ask to be bullied or harmed or anything…. it changes everything.. you all of a sudden get lumped into a group of peole who are really having mental issues.. and  its a mess….. especialy if someone tries to say that those other people’s problems  are yours… 
 i had a man who came  to my home  and ask me if i could cook… ( as if i couldn’t cook for myself….    i thought he wanted to know  the extent  of my cooking  skills.. so i told  him  i could a bit…  i can make a beef wellington, spaghetti  sauce .. and all sorts of foods… i have a few that are  easier than others…   but  i cannot make a hollindale sauce…  if truth  be told… )  he looked over my home ( usually neat as a pin) and  asked me what seemed to be such stupid questions… like  the day…the time…  etc.  what  a waste for tax payers money… and of lawyers fees.. and of everything ..  the after effects of all of this… i have to continually prove myself…   even  for this past week  going  through the entire home ordeal l… the police were  called to my home 3-4 times  from people  thinking i was suicidal.. i told then  i am not … not going to kill myself  today… i had to show  them my well stocked refrigerator.. and freezer and  pantry.. and had to walk them though  my home…   usually neat and organized… 
I put in the posts an email reply from   one really nice police officer… actually all the police officers have been really nice…  and  seem to  understand that i have had a lot of  people who purposely picked on me…….( often on the phone) and have done some serious damage to my reputation though letters and emails..  and  no one stopped them…   
 
All I wanted to do was  to live a  great life… and be successful..be loved by my friends and my family.. and god… .  to be  honest and caring and  get to do all the  regualr nice great  experiences in life…  but i  definitely did not have to go through any of this… it did not make me stronger.. or tougher or  better in any way shape or form….  nor did i want to… nor is it God’s  will… it was set in motion by  a group of people who have not only profited off these horrible experiences.. but have completely and utterly damaged my life through them….  
 
  

Thursday July 28th 2011@ 2:37am ( notes on phone conversations… wrong people on the phone… or wrong family?) y..)..

so in mysearchforjjsutice.com  i mentioned so many times about the
wrong  ans i mean really wrong people… late tonight my fake mom on the
phone  was bad mouthing my sister Maura.. saying she was cold   hearten
and unhelpful that she didn’t want to help me with my home auction
situation…  . or anything…. luckily i spoke with blake fletcher
earlier today… and yesterday and had him also confirm that my sister
is great… she is nice i mean she is a really strong and smart woman…
who knows her mind and who stands up for her beliefs.. but i know for
certain that she has a really sweet side  to her… and a really great
personality …. and who actually has a very sensitive side….  i
remember  talking to her abut the “soup for the soul stories”… and i
remember her talking about when  we imagined having children  children..
…actually ….when we both had children…( of course i never got to
have the opportunity)  and if we had the opportunity to raise
children…. it would be nice so that they knew their cousins… and so
that they could be friends…

 my sister actually both sisters   would  not have been so loved by all 
their  friends…  if  they were as mean as these people on the  phone
keep trying to make them …. and i know she( MAURA)   always has had so
many friends… maura and mattie coudl go to any town.. int any
place… and make freids.. and be loved by all…. really quickly… i
always admired that about them… i was sometimes a bit more shy around
strangers but woudl warm up after a while 

For some reason  people don’t  want me to have anyone who can help with 
this whole hoe auction… don’t  know if they are themselves making a
profit off my suffering…. or just sticking me with all the  wrong
people … who aren’t my friends or family….  or influential people 
who could actually help….  i couldn’t in a million years ever think
that my sister would want me to go through anything bad…. lose my home
over a simple and actully a small amout of money…. for most of  the 
real people i used to know….   and  the  continued 
misunderstandings… and the  series of  events that seem to have lead
here… mysiter maura is not soem mean ogar…. who want s me to go
through soethgn bad..jsut liek i had some idiot who said that she was
actually picking on my mom… how rdiculious…. totally not 
myisiter…. who woud lbe so cruel a sto pick n a 74 year old woman…
who mad sure   we had a great chidhood and who made sure that we had
evereythign  we ever needed includgn tris al aoud the world… and so
many woderful experiences…. i honstly thnkit has been 8 years of
havong the wrong family.. maybe longer… but  its jsut not right…. 
who  thought of this sick and psycho game of ruining families.. and
lives only to steal property and businesses ..  do they have a
consciousnss? do they have a loving mother or sister? 

Did i mention that i had someone telling  me they would help me… with
solving this whole auction thing and the right of redemption but that i
wasn’t  allow to work for the babysitting business s anymore?   What
type of freak could that have been? … didn’t sound like someone who
actually  knew a dam thing about what i did for the business… and how 
hard i worked with out pay ( which by the way is kicking me in the
rear… i need pay stubs and verification of income to get a loan from
the bank…  and if had those i wouldn’t have been trying to have any
assistance…  from friends and family…. (if i could actually get in
touch with them. the funny thing is … looking back on when i had the
15, 000. in petty cash  and  lots of business… i guess I  had alot of
friends … where are they now? .

since i cant reach anyone…. i am wondering if these were really great
friends.. or is it that the  scummy con artists have “used up”  all the
resources from  my friends…. because if ever i needed to contact my 
genuine friends and family now was the time….  I’m not sure now if
everyone was a true friends.. i think they were.. i usually select
really great people who are genuine… and not such swayed by if you
have money today or not.. in fact growing up in Saudi i don’t ever
remember ever thinking   about  money.. it just wasn’t an issue…  you
liked people for who who they were… and of course we were growing up 
with them….  in a small safe environment where everyone got to do
pretty much the same things….

 i cant even talk to them to let them know the conditions  i was trying
to set for repayments.. for interest.. or for even an extra bonus to
sweeten the  deal as they  say….

it is so frustrating to talk to someone whois supposed t know youand
really love you.. and hasnt a clue about what yoru family was really
like.. i sont know if allthese peole believe allthe lies… andi cant
stop the lies… irealized that with karn kahel…. and her lies…
telling me she knew my mother… and my own  mother was saying horrid
things about me.. just like the liar today  who is saying my sister 
would not  be nice and smart and  successful… and wouldn’t  jump
through  fire to be there for her family… ( who ever she knew must
have been as evil as her… to have to make others look bad and feel
bad  so that she could feel better about herself.. definitional of a
bully by the way….. and it was  more  for the boys she trespassed into
the strand for….  the boys  she screwed ….. those boys… may have
been the fake mothers who stuck up for a bully so they could get
laid…. and those boys and girls…  who wouldn’t be my choice for  my
friends or family ….  who could  have been on the  phone as my
mother..( you can change your voice to sound like a girl if your  a
boy…. that i researched… ) 

and these people are still getting away with saying bad things about me
and my family…. perhaps its the girl around the corner the boys play
with.. who likes upsetting me to tears or to raising my voice…. does
she  do it to try to prove she is superior… the better  person  who or
better family with her lies… gosh they are so pathetic… .anyway
enough of them… i guess iwont get to have my real family back unti i
see them in heaven.adn there will be no more bullies.. no more lies.. no
mare intentional manipulation… and it will be everything  i had
wanted my life to be like here….  .

 so looking back on 8 years of all of this.. not one full year of great
fun and peace and happiness without some major trauma or drama i was to
endure…   (  i still for the life of me think of  what  i could have
possibly  done to  have so many horrible people pick on me.. so much..
and destroy  pretty much all of my life….  but i mentioned before .. i
now know that  I i don’t matter… they have made that fact perfectly
clear… also I  realized that it  was or is like  this whole horrible
series of horrid events is all calculated… the  gilr who stole 
messages.. from our phones and files from my home… .eventually stole a
business (my mom started in 1990… ) . then they  completely shut us
out of a business  that  was my mom’s legacy… and  stole  a business
by stealing  the babysitting jobs…  stealing contracts  … and
well…. doing anything and everything   underhandedly…  jsut not
ethical.. moral or good business.. in the long run i hope what goes
around comes around  for  these thieves….   i have thousands of thee
type of examples and experiences that have changed the  course of my
life .. and  who  maliciously and  with deliberate  intent  were
executed by whoever these  people are…… i know they are not brave
enough to  own up to their responsibility for ruining lives… when i
say  i wasn’t paid ( by whoever was pretending to be my mom at the
time…. )  for they years  of work  helping to create websites.. and
all sorts  of avenues for advertising, marketing,   deemed necessary
for  a business to succeed… these people on the phone… sometimes get
really defensive..  one time it was like argue with a bratty little
kid… who wanted to justifiy why he or she stole…. there is no
excuse.. hate to tell you people .. but you can lie all you want .. what
you did  was wrong… to steal is wrong…  you should have to deal
with the consequences of your actions.. just like i have to live with 
the consequences of your  actions…. your lies on the  phone……
.your bulling just unforgivable….    ( you know i realized that karn
kahel never once said she was sorry…. not once… )  hummm you boys
still think karen, katie or kimmy or whoever is nice?

another example…  happening right now… now.. trying to reach people
who would  help …. in a heartbeat…  they would help… but after
years of god only knows what was told to them…  so many people are
probably not wiling to believe  everything… an now is when i really
need to make sure i can reach my genuine friends and family…. for
real…. but   by  manipulating  the emails.. and the messages… they
have not only wasted precious time… but  not allowed a positive
solution for a horrible situation… i know for a fact that my sister
Maura could have fixed  all of this before the condo went up for
auction…. she is a real estate lawyer…. she would have most probably
had the  lawyers  fees and interest dismissed..or waived.. she would
have know all about he right of redemption… and all the  things i
have  to learn about on my own…  but just by getting rid of the 
fees.. the total due would have been so much less… approx.  21,000 to
come up with….. and i bet she would have been able to post pone  or
work out a settlement that i could have used the  equity in the 
condo… to redeem the value.. so i could have paid it myself…. . and
it would have been all over in a few days if not a week….   if you are
able to  talk to the correct and helpful people  it would have  been
fixed…. easily fixed… and for my benefit… and there wouldn’t be a
horrible outcome that is totally  the result  from the manipulation of
the situation….  once again i say… malicious intent….
premeditated, deliberate… and calculated…..

 
Maura has never been like some punishing god who wants to harm me… its
not who i ever  knew as my sister….  ask gloria fletcher.. or blake
fletcher… or anyone who knows her….   for Gods sake this isn’t a
game it is my real life…. and i have to deal with the real
consequences of not  begin able to contact the family/friends  who can
help me make everything right…  dont you get it?… you  are ruining a
real life.. my real life….

again i repeat.. my sister Maura.. is not like some punishing  GOD…
who is out to  harm me to see what will happen .. or worse yet who
doesn’t  care what will happen… she just wouldn’t . do that or be like
that …. she’s a great lawyer…. with great advice… and i know
would have fixed this  situation in a minute…. ….

It feel as if these sickos onteh phone also  don’t want me to have  any
friends.. and especially  any  friends  who made wise choices and have 
secure  finances….  even family or friends  that would  be willing to
help so i could just borrow  the money .. get my home back..then pay
them  back….. some of  these people on the   phone have  wanted to
really profit and  i mean big time profit… off my misfortune.. ..  
they have yelled at  me.. not knwing anything aobut me or mywork ethic..
theytellme to go get a job… that  they have been  telling me this for
years… which is a lie.. that acuallyjstu started recently… of couse
th eiditos ont he phone dont knwo tha i helped mymom whtn i ws 10 or 11
and  we allhelped withher tours… learneto ansere th aphone with
proper etiquette… and  gained tha entrpreneural spitit. aobu the same
time…HA! theydont knwo tha kathey yung an i  started a peanut brittle
busniess.. when we wer 11 or 12… that  i thought it ws funto hve money
adn starte busnesses.. i still do…. in fact they had no idea tha i
had contracts   15,000.00  per project… when i was still faux painting
for my own  business… with a minimum of $825.00 to walk into  a room (
including stenciled boarder or a powder bath… to do anything…. that
my  contract s for  the projects.. the sample boards.. and every aspect
of the business.. i was excited to create…  all i can say is that  i
know  last year when i was working with  group of sitters  at the 
Edwards Jones group….  one sitter named Andrea mots said her husband
was yelling  at her to get a job.. now i never met the man…  and i
don’t know who  these people are acting like but  I can definitely  tell
you i don’t enjoy this personality at all…..not one bit!…  who
needs about be accused of not working enough.. or yelled at to go get a
job when they  know nothing of me or my life…  and my family  helped
to chose careers not just jobs.. and carers that you were passionate
about… my dad was really big on finding something hat you liked to
do… since when you love what you do it isn’t like work…

 i can tell you … the truth… its just not the same….   nothing
like  that philosophy…  has one  of the conversations… nothing 
nice.. and thought provoking… or inspirational…  who are these
people? mostly  i get upset at them trying to predict a horrid future
for me…  or who are they acting like?…. its not like  my family…. 
and its like  sometimes it is a repeated  tape… nothing real or
original..or normal… hen they find a sore spot.. like i get sensitive
when they talk bad about  my sisters..then they  so for the  kill… and
try to make me really upset.. or when they want t me to believe the 
worst thing ever…. ..that i have to move from a home i have had
since1999…. that my mom and dad helped  me to pick out… lose my home
and have nothing…then they l go on and on until i have a stomach ache
and get mad… and eventually cry…. ….  its  like they have a
series f scripts thy read from… or a series of events/ stories….
with the argument.. the same hurting…  but like different people
saying the same things…. does that make any sense… its like they
only know one page of dialogue.. nothing before the page and nothing
after.. jut one page…..and if its  rotten page…. then  i get to cry a
lot…. and its like the girls know who might  be listening.. who they
want to  make me look bad for and how…   they are clever i must give
them that.. and sneaky and of course so fake it isn’t  funny i bit they
put on a fake smile and act so sweet.. ( not  genuine in the
least….especially  if they can bully….. like they do… well… then
ti guess evil comes in all sorts of packages… )  but karne used to
actually trespass at eh exact moment  i was leaving my home..in fact a
few times she ran right in front of my car…. and i would be upset for
house… same with the cards i would  get that  were post marked from
Cleveland.. and anonymous.(of course) .. but had mean messages
inside…. i  eventually became  so frightened to open anything… that
might be from the bullies… an their families…. and when i did  by
mistake… i and would get upset…it would take so long to calm down…
i guess that is why they did it to spoil holidays…     

   my voice  is horse.. and stomach hurts.. i hate that thee strangers
want me to have this horrid unloving and rotten family… so not only 
is it o.k. to bully me… and make me cry.. but to isolate me form real
family members who actually know and love me…

 i’m assuming since  they have tried to get me to speak bad of y
sisters.. they  have most probably done this to them… made them speak
bad of me?.. or did my sisters  stand up for me? ..i wonder…. 
anyway… tired and  have written allot…  its ashame thiswebsite was
supposed to be all about he fun of dating and meeting mr. right… and
love and romance.. and…. 

Wednesday July 20th 2011 @ 10:09pm ( fbi report -email)

UCF Student Arrested by FBI for Alleged Computer Intrusion

FBI Tampa
July 19, 2011  Special Agent Dave Couvertier
(813) 253-1033
 

— filed under: Press Release

ORLANDO, FL—On Tuesday, July 19, 2011, Scott Matthew Arciszewski, 21, was arrested by FBI special agents at the University of Central Florida in Orlando, Florida without incident. FBI agents also executed a federal search warrant at Arciszewski’s residence, 132 East Plaza Drive, Orlando, Florida.

FBI intelligence gathering efforts uncovered an attempt by unknown individuals to target and attack the InfraGard Tampa Chapter website. With the assistance of the local InfraGard website host, FBI agents were able to develop information which led to today’s law enforcement actions.

InfraGard is an FBI program designed to establish an alliance between academia, private industry, and the FBI. InfraGard members and the FBI exchange information in a concerted effort to protect national and private sector assets. This information is exchanged to help protect our nation’s critical infrastructure—both virtual and physical—from attacks by terrorists and criminals.

The FBI is requesting anyone with information about this matter, or similar crimes, to contact the FBI Tampa office at 813/253-1000.

As in any criminal case, a person is presumed innocent until and unless proven guilty in a court of law.

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Tuesday July 19th 2011@6:37pm ( piers morgan: The insider private diaries of a scandalous decade – how he had hacked phones for a story) phones

Piers Morgan Disputes MP’s Hacking Claim During Rupert Murdoch Hearing

During the Parliament’s long interrogation of Rupert Murdoch this morning, one MP mentioned a book by CNN host Piers Morgan. TVNewser explained how MP and author Louise Mensch alleged that Morgan wrote in his 2005 autobiography (The Insider: Private Diaries of a Scandalous Decade) how he had hacked phones for a story.

Morgan denied the claim in a Twitter statement:
“That MP just claimed I boasted in my book of using phone-hacking for a
scoop. Complete nonsense. Just read the book. I’ve never hacked a
phone, told anyone to hack a phone, or published any stories based on
the hacking of a phone. I wrote in my book that someone warned me
phones could be hacked, so I changed my pin number. That’s it.”

Mensch (pictured, via) has written twelve books, and her official biography
dedicated a paragraph to her writing career:  “On her 22nd birthday,
Louise’s passion for writing was realised with a major publishing deal.
To date, Louise has written twelve novels including a string of
bestsellers. She has sold over two million books worldwide.”

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