This
letter/speech I gave to Patrick Weber and to the
members of the evaluation committee concerning my wishes for the
evaluation’s outcome. I am sending this
again to Patrick and to larry on March 9th 2012 @9:20am to remind them of the urgency and importance
of their assistance in these pending legal matters.
To whom it may
concern:
Today, I’m here
to be evaluated and decisions concerning my life, and my future will be determined. I wanted to
say a few words to everyone present. First and foremost, I wanted to say that
the decisions you’ll make about my life, my independence, and my future are
very important, perhaps not to you as this is just a job for you… But for me…..THIS
IS MY LIFE! This is my real and basically devastated life…
The only one I believe will get to have here on earth.
I’ve had people
involved in my life and creating events and situations that I never wanted, situations that
have to me, ruined 12 years of a perfectly great life. A life involving plans for a perfectly great future. I planned
on owning my own condo, or home, decorating my condo, having guests, and dinner
parties, joining great organizations such as:
junior league, and becoming very involved in my alumni sorority Kappa Alpha Theta. I planned on making a valuable contribution
to my community. I had hoped to meet and date someone amazing and God
willing get married and have a family. I
planned on furthering my education to include many interests and classes for
pleasure and perhaps get an MBA or additional degree I could utilize in a
professional capacity, ( like one of
many interests I have had is an interior
design degree). I planned on creating businesses and actually
becoming somewhat successful, I planned on enriching my life, my circle of
friends and gaining genuine friendships that I could carry on throughout many years and for the rest of my life. I also
planned on making sure to continue to
strengthen my friendships and relationships… Those relationships I’ve
cultivated throughout my entire lifetime… Whether I was keeping in constant contact by phone, by mail, or e-mail and even
visits…
But not one
of my hopes or wishes or plans ever came to pass instead I lived what I must
say has been the 12 years where I have had the worst experiences of my life.
Due to the
events of the past 12 years, I can definitely say that these years instead of
being the best years of my life have been the worst. I’ve been bullied,
harassed, and stolen from, lied to, manipulated, and had to go through more
horrid experiences than anyone I’ve ever known has had to endure. This was my
real life, the only life I was given…
and to have what could have been the best years of my life ruined to the point
where it has turned out to be the worst…
is UNFORGIVABLE let alone criminal!.
Many events contributed to such a horrible outcome. I’m
hoping that today, the verdict of this evaluation will allow me to have a much
better future. Even though I will never get back these 12 years I will surely
NEVER FORGET OR FORGIVE all the injustice I’ve had to endure. I’m asking you to use your heart, your mind,
and your conscience to take your time and make this evaluation one that will
undo 12 years of injustice and manipulation and corruption! That this evaluation’s outcome will eradicate
all the lies, misdiagnoses, the fraudulent , hurtful labels and excuses used in
order to harm my life. This is your chance to allow one small bit of justice to
stand on its own and to make right what so many people have allowed to happen. This verdict will allow one small and
insignificant person to stop be bullied,
stop being harassed, manipulated and to stop people from being allowed to irrevocable
hurt me , Mary Jean Ziska.
If you do not
make an accurate evaluation and allow me
to have my life free of further damage
free to pursue my passions and utilize my rights and liberties as an
American woman you will be doing a grave
injustice. If you
allow any further rights and liberties to be taken from me except the
need for a guardian who assists in
handling legal matters and assists in financial decisions, you will again be allowing a huge travesty of injustice to occur allowing more years of woman’s
life be ruined, wasted and harmed… You
will be allowing my life to be ruined all over again
I’ve already had
to endure 12 years of my life stolen, all my hopes and dreams stolen, all my
expectations of my future stolen, and I can’t get one moment of it back. The
people who have allowed any of
the horrid experiences to occur are culpable of many crimes against the law and
against human dignity and still go unpunished. This not only unfair but unjust and you have the
power to make a change in a life today…
My life. I ask that you make the right choice and give me back my independence,
my rights, and allow me to gain my life
back. It will never be the life I should
have had. But perhaps in time,
warranting no further crimes and harm against
me, I will put back together my
shattered existence and move forward.
There are times
in a person’s life when you may need the assistance of a guardian, after enduring
far too much trauma, bullying and
harassment and basically my inevitable nervous breakdown there was no way I could
handle parts of my life. I’ve been tormented to the point of telling people I
wanted it stopped and no one listening, no one helping, and to the point where
I wished I was dead instead of ever enduring anymore. I’ve often even said that
my cousin Nancy who was murdered at 25
years old was lucky. She only had to meet one criminal who shot her in
the head where as I have had to endure
multiple criminals who had harmed my live over and over without any
justice!
I’ve been misdiagnosed: I’m
not anorexic, even though the harassment cause me to lose 30 pounds. I’m not
bipolar even though I’ve cried after being bullied and when events bringing
back horrible experiences of being harassed bullied tormented including crime after
crime was allowed to occur.
Instead of any resemblance of justice, I
received just excuses and justifications of why it was all right to steal for
me, to harm my life, my existence in any way shape or form. Time and time again my wishes, well-being,
and welfare didn’t matter. Injustices and crimes that for 12 years have not been dealt
with, no possessions of ever been recovered no apology has ever been given, no
punishment and court hearing where those who harmed me were put on trial. Instead I was the person (the victim) who was punished, who had to go through numerous
court cases, and who had to over and over again be victimized.
I’m nothing more than a normal girl/woman who endured abnormal circumstances and had to
deal with them the best way she knew how. In dealing with the situations and people I
made poor choices of who were safe people and my misjudgments have cost me far
too much. I regret these choices every day and relive moments that I wish I
would never have happened. Most nights I have stopped having nightmares but the
aftermath of the trauma has cost me my
feeling my security, and my feeling of safety. I have altered my lifestyle greatly in reaction
to these events. I’ll never be the same innocent, loving, kind sweet, trusting person I once was. I may
always need to sleep with the light on at night. I don’t know how far-reaching
and lasting these after effects will last. All I know is that people and events
that have changed my life will now be a part of my life forever and instead of
having great memories, and moments to cherish, I will forever be haunted.
These 12 years
have not made one moment go away… I will have to live with the memories and
moments I wish I’d never had I will have to deal with the tormentors and deal
with their after effects of crime.
Including the ruining of my credit
due to the identity theft, the ruining of my entire
life….I’ve had to deal with the consequences of the labels and the fact that
because of these labels I wasn’t believed, was not considered significant, and
more injustices were allowed to occur. I have had people trying to decide what was wrong with me instead
of what was still right with me
after having lived through all that I have been through … what they wanted to
do with me instead of what I wanted out of my life, my home…
My future. I started a blog to document all the events and to let
people know the truth it is not even
close to being finished. The website and blog is: www.mysearchforjustice.com. I’m hoping I can add a blog entry about
these events that allow justice to be achieved once and for all for this to be over!
I thank you for
your kind attention to this
letter/speech I am now ready to answer
your questions.
This letter was
written by Mary Jean ZISKA reevaluation including one Dr. to nurse’s one
guardian. As a side note the need for a lawyer to assist in pending legal
matters making sure that no one takes advantage of the present situations.