Author Archives: mary jean ziska

Fri December 09th 2011 @ 11:25am( called ADT this morngin concerning the alarm )

 So this morning I called ADT  to ask about the alarm programming…   when my alarm goes off… people keep telling me that the boogy man is makng th ealarm go off… like last night at aprox 11pm the alarm went off noting  that the sliding  glass window  was to blame… when teh slidin glass window has nothing going on with it… adnthen this morning… at 8am….  it went off again…. and  I  wrote inone of my last blogs… blog..about seeing a man  scurring away…   the only room i could  not visiblly see… was the guest  bedroom….   so i called adt… 

they said if the sensors had been swithed ..and they were origionally numbered and   designated for    a certain area… then if they had been moved to another area.. they may actually designate a problem in the original area… therfore if someone had taken the living room sensors.. and changed them out for the guest bedroom sensors… then the living room sensor would  still register  even if a problem occurred in the  gurst bedroom…. Hummmmmm 

or another plausable siutaion.. there are workers doing some type of construction labor in teh upstairs condo…. could  their work be interferring with the  cables…. but they wouldnt be  workign at 11pm right?  and  if they interferred with the  cables… ar they the reason my cable went out…. a few weeks ago.. the cable in my condo  went  out..  when i t came back on.. i amstillmissing a ton of regular  cable channels.. and the cable in teh den and  in the  guest bedroom still doestn work….   and does that have anything to do with the home alarm system…
when i first got the alarm system.. it was a bit fishy.. it was after working for karn kahe… (  the perosn i actaully hate the most in this world…) and i had to have someone named omar come from  fort myers or sarasota… to do the  inspection and the  installation….   could omar be realated to the dark haired dark eyed… and dark skinned girl…. in karn  kahels picture  (?) … 

i had someone (who liked to scare me) tell me that the alarm was not actully  with ADT… and  was instead being monitored by  somone in my nieghborhood… at the time i gnored the tall tale but so many horrid things have happened ..  with people breaking and entering.. and people  stealing.. and ruining  so many  areas of my life….. and somehow knowing wheni woeld be leaving  my home…. and when i entered my home… like when karen  kahel    woudl somehow appear running and trespassing into the strand jsut after i left myhome… i mean how the hell did she know wheni woudl have been leavingmyhome… unless she had some type of notification..right?   and  when all the times i would  go babysitting and they would break in and enter my home….. was that also related to my alarm….   


    

Wednesday November 16th 2011 @ 8:03pm ( HELP!)

so everything is stanrting allover agin.. i had my mom come over yesterday… now does this sound right.. that they do mri’s at 8:30pm?????? anyway… that is what i was told so she oudl nt comm eby my hoem for dinner until after the mri.. which put here at my home at 9:30pm for diner… no problem… and it was actually a rally nice visit…  jsut the two of us.. out on the lamai.. with candles.. and sharing a ritz cookie… ( along with  the cinamon crepes.. and the   stew… well soet of i made the white saue.. and a bunch of veggies.. nad then this strognoff type sauce… to be realy honest it was and is great…

so then she stayed and we visited until about 11:30pm and i ended up cleaning up allthe dishes
( only had one load in the dishwasher…. by midnight…) bu thad this horrid  spliting headache… and the headach didnt go away… and i was in bed allday today… i actually woke up a bit early 7:30amish t open windows and to cool down the ondo… and then i was in bed untilabout 5pm…  Yesterday allthe bcable was out.. jsut in my condo.. and  when it was put back on ionly have a few channels… 

i watch a movie on 96 and on teh catholic religious channel… inbetween sleeping alot… 

but today  when i usedto phoen to call my mom… all hell broke lose ..it was like she was an uneducated constructuion boy… a real pig…  who”couldn’t handle anythng” and was nothing like the sweet perosn who came eby last night… wha teh hell.. 


 and when i tried calling scott renshaw… theyhung up on me… WHAT THE HELL… and the person on teh phoen  was tryong to tell mytha mycousin GREG who is supposedly in town  cnat se mye because he is busy painting  a roof.. AGAIN… not my family!!!!!!!!! i know one son upstairs is a roofer… for an ohio family..did somem ass hoel ge tmy family and ther family mixed up again…

THIS IS GOING TO BE AHORRID THANKS GIVEDING AND CHRISTMAS!!!! and  i am sooo lonely as it is… 

beside gogin to babysit for the wrong people… and haven g two computer broken. and $240.00 stolen… and    a headlight broken…..  adn these ass holes takein gaway my tv channels… and not allowign me to see or talk to my family… i feel like i have been kidnapped and sold to a really rtotten family…. really rotten family… who doesnt care one bit about me..

infat i had this guy/girl who was pretendign to be my mom on the phoen …. tell me when i triedto talkto her /him about   the type of boys/men i would like to have in my family…  to date so i coudl be adoped into ther famiy i guess…  beause the peorpl onteh pnoen are rotten… and not nice and not my family!! not even my friends…  any way..  thes people  basialliy said they dont care what i am looking of in a guy… especialy since  they dont are that i waanted soemene 

NORMAL…. no dreg problems no alchol rpobmes no crazies… and no freaks… and felons…

Where are the normal people!!!!!!! 

I miss my family …..my lovign normal genuine family….  mylovign and genuine freinds… 

i wanat in a guy.. a white.. caucasian, not even overly tan…  nromal guy… 
who is tall thin normal althlec build but normal… not body buildre
who is blond or has light brown hari. but was blond when he was a child… and definatley blue eyes…. ans ewho is intelligent.. and abmitious entrepreneural spitit..sucessful professional genreous kind rpmantic imaginative nice thoughtful  great at conversation funny witty clever.. has taste nammers etiquette great family iwoudl want ot be a part of..  encouragian and supportive of achieving goals and dreams great with money adn fianances makes intelligetn decissions someoen who is integuing interesting well heeled adn makes  smart deissionns in  all areas of life… who has morals and values and ethics.. who  

Thursday November 10th 2011@11:38pm… ( freakingout … my alarm to my cono went off three times from 10pm until 11pm.. tonight… yikes..)

o.k so now I’m freaking out  a bit…

 this evening … the alarm went off at 10:10pm stating it was the living room sliding glass door that was causing the alarm to go off.. then it went off again at 10:22pm then the last time …  (I didn’t catch the exact time… but it wasn’t long after the  last  time… so probably about 10:27… but each time the alarm and motion sensor said it was the  sliding  glass door…  and I could see the sliding glass door  from  the alarm center…. hummmm again weird right? 

I turned the alarm on with all things locked up… and closed…. at about 10 pm this evening… 

i just don’t  feel very safe at this moment…     I checked the windows… all that i could  see.. and  checked the  garage… it all looked alright… i guess… I didn’t go out side and walk around   or anything ..

This kind of thing… these are times when i miss having old  my  roommate Scott here.. or having my dad here.. he would have made me feel safe… or getting that guard dog… to patrol around… the house on attack mode… 

anyway… did i mention i hate criminals …. and breaking and entering  is a crime…

I tried to call my mom    no answer.. on her home phone.. or her cell.. and usually she answers in case it is  work..or  one of her daughters who may  need her.. for emergencies… I think she will always be one  of those mom’s who is available for  emergencies… and  to be perfectly honest i appreciate that…. especially when i am afraid.. like now…. 

 when I couldn’t  get a hold of her..I tried to call my old  roommate Scott Renshaw… but just got the  answering machine  so i left a message…   

I went through all sort of possibilities…  in my mind.. could it be someone breaking in?… or a mix up in the wiring?… or both?….  don’t think I will be sleeping  very well tonight…  at least i will defiantly make sure all locks  and additional precautions for security are in place tonight… definitely  make sure of that…
    

Thursday November 03rd 2011@11:36pm ( my mom got a bully email… )

 

So today I had a phone call from caller id: ( 26669-6687) yep, not enough numbers for a real phone number…. But it is supposed to be my mother’s caller id… on the one phone it says anonymous… then on another phone it has that weird number….  But that’s not the major point I wanted to make… the caller on the line  said that she received a really mean email from my sister Maura…  Now this couldn’t possibly be true… an email saying  that she ( my sister Maura &nbsp either didn’t want my mom to come to her granddaughter’s birthday… or something  to the effect????… From what the person on the phone said it sounded really mean… so I knew it couldn’t possibly be from my actual real live sister…  Not at all possible!!!!!!!!…. 


I tried to remind the person on the phone that  I had received numerous phone calls that were from  bullies.. and letters an even cards that  were all meant to harass to bully and to make me cry… to isolate me from my family and my friends and  meant  to  separate me from my family.. Hundreds in fact… over these horrid years…  so many I even called Gloria fletcher  ( a family friend and criminal attorney ) and she reassured me that my family still loved me.. and no those horrid letters or cards or phone calls couldn’t possibly be from my family…  I once even called maura’s husband eric…. When someone e tried to tell me that my sister Maura didn’t even like me anymore… That is not ever the type of thing my sister would ever say…. Or ever tell someone to say to me…. Whoever is trying to separate me or my mom from my sister… the sister who is the attorney. …Who has children… who has a really nice life…  could it be possibly to what???  Steal Christmas presents?  Manipulate holiday plans…. Why the hell would someone  do something  like that?  I know my real genuine  authentic mother…. I know  how much she loves her children.. and  I know  my sister Maura .. and I know how much she loves her mother… and how much she loves her family… Good God people… WHY????  why  does someone get a kick of out  messing  with a family..  trying to destroy  relationships… and trying to destroy  a life time of love… this really stinks…  


DON’T HURT MY FAMILY!   


It is really suspicious that this is starting right around the time of the holidays….. what type of mean, sick demented, person wants to separate a 74 year old mother from her daughter and  her granddaughter…


My sister may be a lawyer.. but she is also a great, loving  daughter.. and  a  great loving sister…  a note to the bullies… and the tormentors… Quit it! 


These people tried to have my mom believe that my sister didn’t love her.. or… like her… to the point that she was upset.. and wrapping a present for me and my sister Mattie… but  not for Maura?… what a crock of poop…. My mother was the epitimy of unconditional love..  and she even got a present for Maura each and  every birthday that  Mattie and I shared…   she wanted us all to have great holidays.. to have great lives… and to  be really happy….   She is a great mom who isn’t some embarrasement…  or unloved by her children…  she is an amazing woman, mother, and now a grandmother…  and would be a blessing to all she is able to visit… i dont understand  why somebody still wants  to create unnecessary drama or to try to make my; family look horrid… is my family so much of a threat?   someoen sooo unhappy that we can love each other? or be nice to each other? or actually want ot be around each other?… sisters sho ar suposrtive of dreams.. and of futures… a mother who showed us the world .. and  allowed us to have so many advantages…. and rally really loved us.. and wanted us to have great lives… that is the family i remember..  not allthe fake dramas that some  sick individual gets a thrill trying to promote…    seriously.. what a pathetic horrid person … who takes pleasure in harming instead of building up people… who wants  to seperate instead of unite…  i guess that is why  they still hide behind fake caller id’s or maniplulations…  i hope and pray that they are caught and they are punished for the harm they caused… and are still causing…  jsut go bother someoen else… or another family.. youve done enough damage…. are you happy is this allyou wanted???? what a waste.. so much energy for evil instead of for great and  wonderful  experiences…          

Monday October 31st 2011 ( post to put into my gingerbreadman.. about halloween…)

so everyone keeps telling me that i won tget to  marry or even date that great tall,  thinish, blond blueeyed guy who is amazing… and actually loves me for real…. that next lifetime i will get to have a much better expereince from teh age of 35 and beyond…  so in my next lifetime… or maybe if God is a  wonderful God.. one who actually really does know me.. who knows my likes, my wants, my wishes.. and my dreams… maybe he will also knwo that it woudl have been so fun if on today.. halloween.. even  though it is my worst favorite holliday.. ( cant do scary… i mean i really can’t do scarey… ..but next ime.. wheni have that great husband… we may even carve a pumpkin… and  decorate the house… and  our littel girls.. or blond children… will get o get dressed up….  something really unique… an funny.. and clever… and if we take the girls out.. for trick or treating…  it will of course be safe… and fun… adn allthe candy…HA!…. then when  halloween is over.. the really great holidays willstart.. i jsut love thanks giving..and christmas ..my altime favorite… ( hey jsut a thought  maybe this year God will bless me with  that multimillion dollar powerball or lottery ticket…powerball …. already up to $240 some million …..  yep that must be it..  after all this hell… it will  be by this christmas… when all my wishes and dreams will come true..I guess ….probably  except my  dating or marryng that pince charming..HA!… or shall we say gingerbreadman…  with all the icing.. and decorations.. and he will be absolutely great…. GOD I HOPE SO>>>>   
   

MOnday October 31st 2011 @ 3:34pm ( UGG more liars.. and bullies… again!)

So this morning i had a call  at  9:33am with a person who wanted to bring me over a halloween card form Gloria fletcher… that somehow had gotten into her box instead of mine.. Humm.. so it is a felony to tamper with mail right?  still a felony right? 

Since i had a  call I was expecting at 11:30…. i told  them to not  bother coming over…i did ask about having a copy of the paperwork that was sent to David A. Surprant so i coudl have it for my records… it was inforation on how much money my mom gave me over the years… it was the bank  routing number and bank muber of my bank account.. it was
 
i was on the call from 11:00am – 1:30pm… a woman  from canada who is similar to a  motivitaional speaker…..

then i read the  wallstreet journal and  saw that there was news on saudi arabia…. about a new ruler…  so i called my mom to see if she had  taked to  manuria ( a freind of her’s that still lives in saudi)  I was wondering if  the  new ruler …. is he was really consertative as oen article  said.. or if he would be  more liberal… oenarticel mentioned something about woman driving… and then it made me thnk iof oil prices… and of what the futures of oil might be….. anyway…. I got a cll froma caller id of ( 2666-6687)….. not enough numbers for a real phone number… and  guess what the perosn on the other end of the phone only had bad news… 

bully girls who want  me to look bad… what a shocker… ther was a really nice couple wearing black and white matchign outfits that were waliing on the golf course…  bet they  have a really cute son some of these bully girls want to  get to know… right? These bully girls who ar not my friends and family… who pruposely wnt ot mention horrid experinces.. and  who tell me i am not smart…  of wait that was someone i was just  speakign to this afternoon… teh mary jean ziska is not smart.. coment under ther breath…  but  I think  that guy actully likes thae familyl in pine ridge…  with a 22 or 24 year old daughter… and a younger  asian adopted daughter.. i babysat for them… at one point  in time. watch this movei about a monster house.. with this charcter DJ and this white blond mean and bossy girl .. cant remember the reat of the movie… or the sitign job other than  they  wanted my life to be really small..  and  weren’t  freinds….
anyway…. .


so  these people on the phone…  wanted to  tell me at 2:49 and at 2:50 that kelly  who is a paralegal said that a motion was filed by the  lawyer  from the HOA people… to get a guardian… on my behalf…  and the “person ”  on  the  phone wanted me to believe that additonal funds were being added to an already filed  paperwork… not possible to do.. once it is filed..  it is filed… you nedto fiel an admendent of some sort… so it is all  more lies…. also  that the litton loan  is not dismissed… but that everything legally done in the court is not valid????and i have to go by what this perosn on teh phone is tellin g me is true…. or what kelly  the paralegal    says is the  truth.. and is binding in the state of florida… WHAT????
 
Even when they had sent some paper work in the mail….( it was a fake motion that was not filed.. that was full of lies… and when one lawyer showed up in court…adn had the paperwork in her hand…. and  it read that a copy had been sent ot my lawyer. and to my  mom and to my mom’s lawyer… it was all a bunch of lies… and had never been sent to any of the lawyers.. but had been sent ot me to scare me and to bully me…     and it was not even  a filed motion..  but it was  a whole bunch of lies meant to harass me ..to threaten me and the scare me.. all the contents… were  false… … but for somereason…  someone thinks they are above the law..  and that  whatever some bully girl/baysitter…. or whoever  says over the phone is suposed to be the truth… that is they put a piece o fmail in my milbox .. that it is true… and that i have to deal with all the concequences….of all their lies… allthe damage they do…    WHAT THE HELL? 

I immediatedly called my lawer ( john cardillo…) and left a message with nichole to tell him that  this “woman/person ”   on the  phone is tryng to make me believe that  he and the HOA  lawyers ( opposing sides) .. are working together….. filing papers.. I mentioned to her… that would  definately be a conflict of interest.. and would  be unethical.. and  john would  know better than to do anythng like that… right??????  HELL….. he could  be disbarred .. and  over what?…. one condo and one guardianship case…  There is noooo way he would do anything like that… but i wanted nichole to know that the bully girls are up to their old tricks again… John  is way too smart…. and i feel so manipulated .. i got used again… by a bunch of bully girls who wanted  to upset me….  must be a really good looking and wealthy guy they are trying ot impress…. this time.. so they need to ruin my life all over again…. usually they will try to make me cry… or harm my reputation in some way…. so they look good..or at least better i mean who woudl want ot date soeon ewho had to go thorugh alltheis horrible stuff… hell i dont wnat to go thoruh any of this..and i have had to deal with these scumy people for almsot 10 years… …. 

 Gosh it is  really easier somedays to not answer the phone.. let alone go out side.. no wonder I  get sooo damm anxious….and upset.. with allthe bulling..and the lies.. and  these people who are not helping at all to make my life one bit better… is it another idenity thief?….When i went to  my apointment on fri.  there were some really nice looking people headed into the strand…. as i was leaving…  

 Anyway… ….   Ihope i was able to trust the perosn i gave my banking information… who was mailin g it to the ssi ofice… and i will need to make sure the  bank is aware of all that is goign on..managers and all…  incase other duplicate cards  show up… or my accounts start haivn issues… jsut  so that they cannot steal any money from my accounts…
I hate having to  have to be soo overly prepared… jsut because a gorup of scummy criminals.. got a hold of my life.. and ruined everything…..   

and gosh… what else do i need to be made aware of… haven’t i been through enough????? 
 guess not to someoen … since I am getting lied  to again to get me upset.. in hopes that i will cry or lose it… ..guess it still gives these idiots a thrill.. to manipulate a life.. to get a girel upset… to see a girl cry… what real man actually does that?… what normal  girl actully does that?  None  that i ever met…  

Ugg.. i’ve had to deal with all these  scum bags for soo many years.. i’ts hard to ever remember when life was nice and simple and great and fun and happy and sweet… 

I also  told( the perosn on the  phone call  from  some wierd number( 2666-6687)…. when it is supposed to be 239-598-1515) her that the HOA  lawyer  had been thrown
out of the court… by the judge… when she had wanted  to know if she could  file guardianship papers….  that the two cases are separate… and not interchangeable.. and everything is still pending….  and the last bit of information  is a court case continued status… filed on 9/12/2011……   
   
 When   I  went to the clerk of courts website… no such motion was filed… and no additonal anything  had been filed… everything is pending.. and it is goign to be a really long process… 

the last  part of my life that has been ruined (for this week anyway)  is the filing of  social secuirty  paperwork .. it was sent  supposedly today and  fri.  I have spoken to verious people on the phone an d everyone has a different story… i had  oen perosn  ( supposedly my  mom  who said they had worked onteh paperwork all  fri and put it in the mail…. ) then another  person   said that they had just put all the paprerwork in the mail today…. and yet another person  said they drove to the office and  put the paperwork in the slot… WHAT IS TRUE???????  and  David A Surprenant  will be receiving everything by the end of this week… he said that it will take only a week for him to process everything and  then it will be finished.   We met with him on Fri. October 28th 2011 @ 11:00am.   He had a bunch of  questions  for me to answer  and wanted more paperwork  filled out and sent back to him. He aslso wanted  my checking and routing number from my checking account so that  everything can be finalized and set up for automatic deposit.  I didnt have that information on me so when i got home i went  to my bank and  was able to  get  papers( from Christina)   to establish an automatic deposit…. after these past years.. i am tryign to make sur eteh y somehow dont steal anything again… i am  jsut one perosn  and these criminals.. they  think so deviously… i can never seem to thnk faster thatn the m or like them..  i cna tcome up with allthe sceems they have pulled… to steal all sorts of things… like  who woudl ever think to steal  baysittig jobs by hacking into  a perosn’s voice mail.. or to steal birthday presents…  or to steal cards.. or to steal  everything… or anything… like a kacki  cashmire sweater…. or pictures.. or all the things they have stolen…  and ruined… who would have ever thought such scum existed…   



( On saturday  October  29th  2011 i went out of my  home again.. iwnet to pick up my  DVD ( The Prince and Me) i had loaned  to  Chris  and get some lotto tickets… ( hoping miracles will somehow happen…. like that huge financial miracle and pritection from harm… ) and went to st johns to say my st. jude novena.. nad then by my mom’s house… she and my aunt fran had goen to tehe ritz to have hordiervesand a nice glass  of wine and some  deserts…  she gave me the deserts…to take  home… and i brought her over some scones that she had liked  when she was last over at my condo…  YUMMM ….  anyway while i was there she photocopied the  bank paperwork and told  me she woudl mail it all tomorrow…  which is today…  

Since i have soo many scummy women who seem to not have my best interest at heart…   and who  still seem to enjoy  harming my reputation.. and making me look  bad or worse yet go through worse expereinces… i ‘d  better check on everyting.. Sheesh… what a waste of a perfectly great life…  

 

Fri. October 28th 2011@7:48am ( thank you card to my aunt … this post i need to move to my ginerbreadman website later… ) that letter

Dear Aunt Fran:    October 2011
Thank you for  the lovely flowers and for the t-shirt from the Ritz and the  Scarf and the curtains in the Saks fifth  avenue bag. 

Thank you for being on my side  for loving me and being my protector There are so many things i wanted to say to you ….  on  your visit…  about   how i admire you , our choices, your lifestyle and your ethics and  morals… i didn’t get a chance to tell you all of this… 

I have felt sooo isolated and  alone these past 10 years.. without the constant contact of my family and friends… I miss the life i should have been able to have .. it was supposed to be soo wonderful.  and something special…  I could have achieved so much if i hadn’ t had my identity stolen, or been subjected to cruel and in human criminals…

May God Bless an protect you always .. you  were  such a wonderful  mentor.. and your guidance and love and devotion will never be forgotten
All my Love, Mary Jean ziska

 I also wanted to say.. that  when i was telling  fred about  who you were…other than being my  mothers sister.. you  were wonderful… you made sooo many wonderful  decisions…
you chose a wonderful l man  to marry…  not only  a periodontist.. but  a soft spoken and  wise man  who i really didn’t get to know as well.. but he seemed  so sweet and kind… i never heard him raise his voice or  say an unkind word about anyone…

and together youseemed like such a great team.. and you made so many wise choises..  raliste choices… the home you had in cleveland.. i was told a fran k loyd webber design… grat choice… the condo in vail .. prime wonderful choice.. the condo on the  beach… her in Naples… all of it.. sooo wonderful.. you just  knew  the right choices to make to ensure a great future…     but not only were you a wonderful business woman.. you were so organized… with 7 kids you had to be …HA! but  you always seemed to be in complete control of everything…  and then their is the matter of your manners.. your poise.. your style.. you  always look impeccable… and well put together..  i could imaging e that so many woman and people would have wanted to be  your friend… and have them in  your life.. you add sooo much of everything… and i wanted to thank you for being a part of my life.. and helping to make my life better…
sheesh.. there  have been so many people who have just destroyed  my life… i wanted to thank you for saying you  were on my side…
I’m still a bit worried about your  comment … when you said the i am a strong girl..and that i can handle anything that is about to happen… I’m not sure what exactly that means… when Fred told me  to check my car .. then the next morning my  battery was dead …. i get really nervous about any predictions… i mean  really  nervous about  any predictions…for my life unless they are telling me that i will be the next multimillion dollar winner of the Florida stare lottery.. or something like that HA!…. anyway…  i love my Aunt Fran…..

. i was given every advantage and i didn’t do anythng wrogn except   trust the wrogn people… and  they took advantge of my innocence.. my nature.. and my  life and i am terrified thy have taken advantage of all my family , freinds and  anyoen else associted with me… to use and abuse as much as they have harmed my life…   

Fri. October 28th 2011@7:06am ( encrypted pages…. on website /blog adn wierd hot flashes and rage/anger after tea… wierd huh?) rage afte )

Hey, I  just  logged onto my website to write in the  blog… and i just  got a pop up saying something about my website not having all encrypted pages… it used to say that  that it was a secure site.. and  i don’t remember ever seeing any of this before….  Sheesh.. now what?

anyway… also weird thing this morning… i had a large cup of tea.. as i normally do each morning… and after the tea.. and yesterday as well.. i started feeling very flushed… i mean actually hot.. and sweaty… then started getting really anxious.. and started feeling ready to get really mad and angry…  i don’t do any drugs..my system is really sensitive to anything.. and to me…. it seemed like some kind of  drug rush.. or maybe steroid range type feeling… and I  defiantly don’t  do any steroids.. or am some type of body builder… the same thing happened last night before i went to bed… and i had another cup of tea.. and i was exhausted after having one of the worst days ever… so i was resting and had a cup of tea…. and when my aunt or cousin David came by… i had two cups of tea and  went into a huge rage over David picking on me… ( i normally can handle at least  a little bit of  bulling… at least i used to .. before karne kahle and others thought it was pure fun to pick on me for years on end… to get me sooo upset that I was shaking and crying and ready to throw up… to where your voice almost changes into this primal gut wrenching type voice… to where you totally lose control…. well  after two  large cups of tea.. with milk and sweetener… it happened….  so it made me remember when  i was living  here and  my dad had come to  live with me to protect me from Gerard… and one  day when i took some midol for  some really severe cramps… and i felt drugged  i mean really drugged… not like an aspirin type .. but really out of it…  for days. and i didn’t notice or realize that the  the pills in my midol were a completely  different color….  hummmm…..  

tea is pretty simple.. water/ tea bag/ and milk and sweeter….. i am using a different tea bag.. Mr. Dee had recommended this tea form England.. P&G  instead of my prince of wales tea from  twinnings…. so i may just try to see if the tea affected me.. or the milk or the water or the sweater… It seems pretty improbably that these products would affect me so dramatically.. but who knows.. an allergy to something perhaps????? or what????  anyway…    I know Fred was talking about this Iranian boss who he  had before …. and fred said the boss  was going crazy because he is on  all sorts of steroids and drugs…. an some other guy was going crazy because of all the steroids he took  for body building…  its just sooo bizarre… 

but i dont take any drugs… and if someone wanted to drug me ..  to what to see what my reaction would be?…. or how it would  affect me?.. that would definitely be a sick psycho type person i would not want in my life…. at all… i mean seriously wouldn’t some control freaky idiot…… some god complex type person.. who thinks being a doctor gives him the right to  play God… doesn’t he actually realize  I’ve already been through enough trauma in my life time  thee past 10 years… to ruin ten lives… let alone e for it to have all happened  to me since having  to deal with a group of scummy con artists and scum in my life?????  who could be sooo cruel…  

 the weird thing a few days ago when i had a bowl of cereal… there was this lumpy substance in my milk.. actual one lump that i found…  its organic whole milk so shouldn’t have any antibiotics..or hormones that would affect me.. it was still fresh so it wasn’t like it was spoiled or like it was  old…. but the heated body…  then anger started…  and i am normally a really  nice and controlled , kind  loving and patient person who doesn’t s really get too mad over a whole lot… well i guess i used to be that way.. not  anymore .. i get jumpy.. scared.. and even though i was really sensitive before .. i am eve  more so… guess its the anxiety and damage done  by karen kahle and gerard alher and all  the rest of the people who got a kick out of following in their footsteps… 

Gosh somedays  when its soo overwhelming .. all  of my life that needs to be repaired.. from  my credit reports.. to  everything .. some days i think and wish what could have been.. what should have been… an   i wish i had never come back to Naples/ Florida or the united states  when i was 18-19 years old…… i should   have stayed in  France.. should  have gone skiing with  my dad in Switzerland.. and i should have never come back…just to eventually  be tormented by criminals… and identity thieves.. and by  anyone who used my life.. to get something for themselves..

Why did they lie to me? ..why did they have to manipulate and   use the  qualities of trust .. and the fact that i loved my family and loved   God and loved my life.. and  all the hopes and dreams i had… using allof it  to  benefit  themselves?…  and ruined my life in the process… what a waste.. what a shame .. 

Thursday October 27th 2011 @1:55pm( need to check on price difference for kappa alpha theta dues… )

 I received an email for a lifetime theta orgainization  I spoke with a representtion on the phone concerning this email… the organization has a one time fee that will provide dues for  your  life to kappa alpha theta.. she told me that the normal dues for kappa alpha theta ……would be around 
$15.00 a year…  I don’t know if she meant  alumani dues as well as  dues when we were active and on campus… or if there are different prices for different areas in the world… but i do know  that i pay 40 dollars each year for my dues here in naples… for the alumani association…. so i jsut wanted to put this in  the blog.. to remind me to check on the actual dues….  adn the cost for kappa alpha theta… 

   

Wednesday October 12th 2011 @ 2:37pm ( horrible day with horrible people on teh phone…. )

  So a horrible day with a horrible fake mom on the phone…
When i told her i woudl write everything on my blog.. ( my search for jsutice.com) guess what? my computer service was mysteriouslly not working.. at 2:36pm

Of course if was workin gwhen i used it to callteh ste attorneys offi and leave amessage concerning getting the idenity theft plice report and it was working whe i called to speak with Scott renshaw.. and it was working when i called to get directions on how to  remove and replace the guest bedroom /bathroom fan….  

but most importantly it was working when i had the bully/ fake mom from hell on the phone.. 

The freak  actually knew tht i spoke with a gentleman for 39 minutes ….. hwoteh hell woudl they know th exact amount of time  i was speking with anyone????? Its teh same criminals /bullies/Thugs…. girsl or boys… who not only get a kick outof breaking me an my life.. but get a thrill form stealing businesses… from impersonating people….. and for lying cheating and stealing form me….  saem people who have been manipulating my lifie…  adn not allowed meth efreedomm to acctully be a real authentic perosn who doenswt fit into ther freak show… or int osome little box… sho actully has many talents and many dreams.. who can actully do a lotof things well ….. and honestly had som e amazing freinds… and a really  nice loving family….. who wasn’t  poor…or stupid… or any of the things these freaks want me to be….  
 
honestly i cant waitto be dead so i can actully not ever be bullied agian.. not ever hve anyone screw up my life… andi will get to see my genuine freinds.. and family who really  know me.. and love me….   now dont go and freak out hnking i am going to kilmy self.. i am not… i am jsut wishing that i had never  ever met any criinals… or idiots who have manipulated y life.. who picked me and my family as a mark to use and abuse…. to steal from and  if i could go back.. i dotn think i woudl have ever come bak to naples … i woudl have stayed in france when i was 19…..  i was safe form criminals.. had genuine friends… or wait i had a safe and fun time  in college… and even  many  years after …..  its all the fault of a group of really horrid criminals.. who  deserve to be in jail forever!!!!!!!!