Today I am here to be evaluated and decisions concerning my life and my future will be determined.  I wanted to say a few words to everyone present.   First and  foremost I wanted to say that the decisions you will make about my life, my independence and my  future are very important, perhaps not to you, as this is just  a job to you … but for me this is my life.    This is my real  and basically devastated  life… the only one I believe I will get to have here on earth.  I have had people involved in my life and creating events and situations that I never wanted, situations that have to me,  ruined 12 years of a perfectly great life.  A life where I had plans for a perfectly great future.    I planned on owning my own condo, or home, decorating my condo, having guests and dinner parties, joining great organizations and making a valuable contribution to my community.   I had hoped to meet and date someone and gods willing perhaps gets married and have a family.     I planned on furthering my education to include many interests and classes for pleasure and perhaps get an MBA or a degree I could use for a profession like an interior design degree…. I planned on creating businesses and actually becoming somewhat successful,   I planned on enriching my life  and my circle of friends and  gaining genuine friendships that I  could carry on throughout many years I also planned on making sure I continued to  strengthen  my friendships and  relationships…. Those relationships I had cultivated throughout my entire lifetime… whether it was keeping in constant contact by phone, by mail or email and even visits…. But not one of my hopes or wishes or plans ever came to pass.  Instead  I lived what I must say has been in these past 12 years  the  years where I have had the worst  experiences of my life.         

Due to the events of the past twelve years I can defiantly say that these years,   instead of being the best years of my life have been the worst.   I have been bullied harassed, stolen from, lied to, manipulate and had to go through more horrid experiences that I any one I ever knew have had to endure.   This was my real life, the only life I was given and to have what could have been the best years of my life turned out to be the worst is unforgivable.   Many events have contributed to such a horrible outcome and I am hoping that today, the verdict of this evaluation will allow me to have a much better future.  Even though I will never get these 12 years back and I will never forget or forgive all the injustice I have had to endure, I am asking you to use your heart, your mind and your consciousness to take your time and make this evaluation one that will undue twelve years of injustice and manipulation, that will eradicate all the lies, the misdiagnosis, the fraudulent and hurtful labels, and excuses used to harm my life. This is your chance to   allow one small bit of justice to  stand on its own and to make right  what so many people have allowed to happen and allowed one small and insignificant person  to be bullied, to be harassed to be manipulated  and to be irrevocably hurt.   If you do not  make an accurate evaluation and allow me to have a life  without the need for a guardian, you will be making a huge travesty of justice to occur and allow  more years of a “girls” life to be ruined, wasted and harmed …  and you will allow my life to be ruined all over again.

 I have already had to have 12 years of my life stolen,  all my hopes and dreams stolen, all my expectations of  my future stolen, and  I can’t get one moment  of it back.   I The people who allowed any of the horrid experiences to occur are culpable of many crimes against  the law and against human dignity and still go unpunished.,  this is not only unfair, but unjust and you have the power to make  a change in a  life today… my life. I ask that you make the right choice and give me my independence back, all my rights completely back and allow me to gain my life back.  It will never be the life I envisioned… but perhaps in time  I  will  put back together my shattered existence and   move forward. 

 There are times in a person ‘s life when you may need  the assistance of a guardian,  after enduring  far too much  trauma, bulling and harassment and basically my  inevitable  nervous breakdown  there was no way I could handle  parts of my life.  I had been tomented to the point of telling people I wanted it stopped and no one listening … no one helping… and to the point where I wished I was dead instead of ever enduring anymore.   I have been misdiagnosed… I am not anorexic even though the harassment caused me to lose 30 lbs.  I am not bipolar even though I have cried after being bullied and when events bring back horrid memories of being harassed, bullied and tormented and when crime after crime after crime was allowed to occur.  Instead of any   resemblance  of justice,   I received  just  excuses and justifications of why it was alright to steal from me,  to harm my life, my existence in any way shape or form, and why time and time  again   my wishes, well-being and  welfare  didn’t matter.  Injustices, and crimes that for twelve years have not been dealt with, no possessions have been recovered, no apology has ever been given, no punishment and court hearing where those who harmed me where put on trial    But Instead  I was the person ( the victim ) was punished.       

 I am nothing more than a normal girl who endured abnormal circumstances and had to deal with them the best way she knew how.   In dealing with these situations and people, I made poor choices of who were safe people and my misjudgments have cost me far too much.  I regret these choices every day and relive moments that I wish never would have happened.   Most night I have stopped having night mares but the aftereffect of the trauma has cost me my security my feeling of safety and I have altered my lifestyle greatly in reaction to these events.  I will never be the   same innocent loving and trusting person I once was,   I may always need to sleep with a light on at night.   I don’t know how far reaching and lasting the after effects will last.   All I know is that the people and events that changed my life will now be a part of my life forever and instead of having great memories, and moments to cherish I will forever be haunted.             

   These twelve years have not made one moment go away….. I will have to live with memories and moments I wish I had never had.  I had had to deal with tormentors and dealt with the after effects of crime.  I have had to deal with the consequences of the labels and the fact that because e of these labels I wasn’t believed was not considered significant and more injustices were allowed to occur.    I have had people trying to decide what was wrong with me instead of what  was still right with me after all that  I  have been through…. … of what they wanted to do with me.. Instead of asking what I wanted out of my life, my home… my future.     I started a blog to document all the events and to let people know the truth.   It is not even close to being finished.    The website and blog is:  www.mysearchforjustice.com.          I am hoping I can add a blog entry about these events that will allow justice to be achieved once and for all and for all this to be over thank you for your kind attention to me I am ready to answer your questions: