(Of  course I am being  sarcastic… I hate the witch…. But it must take some talent to raise  children to be criminals.. I still haven’t found  out if the one little girl in port royal who stole my cashmere sweater.. and the  treasure hunt cards… and the Thomas bubble blowers…  actually was related to her… but she had the blond hair and the freckles. And the same  hair raising   persona.. you know .. when you are around pure evil and the hairs in your arm raise… yep this little girl did the same thing just like Karen…. k!

And I have a niece who has has the most beautiful blond hair.. and blue eyes… but is soo sweet… it has to be in the way the person comes into this world.. a bully  and criminals is a bully and criminal.. or the way they are raised. So if she is related to Karen kahel…. It just makes sense.. not an excuse.. but makes senses….

Opps I should say allegedly whoring around.. right.?HA! I mean if she is allowed to  say anything   and everything and I have to talk to some  witch on the phone. Who sticks up for her instead of her own daughter… .and  the idiot who comes for dinner is even going to act like the bitch…. And  to boot… I’m not  permitted to talk to any of my  real friends  who  by the way  would never say any of these things… to me… no real friend is going to  protect a bully… one  who bullied you… and protect or stick up for a girl who is  so evil she makes people cry.. on purpose.. then jumps up and down to say she won she won. Like  Charlie  sheen… she ‘s into winning…  and bulling and trespassing and I guess she believes she is above the  law or any rules.. or anything decent or noble or  honorable   When I wrote  about where are the men with integrity.. where the hell are the women with integrity.. the women who make those life long friends… that you can count on .. that   are loyal.. and decent .. and have morals and values.. and who stick up for their   friends.. and would never allow a bully “to WIN” … what is it like to talk to the enemy…. It is horrible.. it is  lonely and it is  unforgivable…..

what is it like talking to a witch..the emeny… the bully herself… who will twist words   and try to make your  life hell.. will try to  make  you  look bad.. well for the past two days on the phone that  is all it has been… I also had this person fred over for dinner  and   when she waked in with sweet bay  (susposedly… I was told  the ohio’s favorit place to shop…. ) and  then tried  to tell me acting as if he is Karen kahel… that even though  I hate her/him .. he will pray for me… what a crock. he didn’t pray for dinner… unless I pray  when I sit down and pray… before  dinner.. .but was trying to make “her” look like she is sooo saintly… a whore who  screws a guys in a pool while l I am babysitting her 3 month old son in 2005… who   purposely trespassed and bullied .. who harmed so many people  .. Without one word of sorrow…  did that whore actually think of praying for me when she was bulling me to tears(?) .. or  trespassing  to get a better chance to bully  no not one  bit of  remorse.. not one” I am sorry”…. Ever… and  to continue to do the same actions …. harass me.. and everything  she said or did.. to harm my life… no of course not but today someone is pretending that the bully and trespassing whore… is a saint.. What a  crock….

 I prayed for her too.. that one day she will be on her knees begging  for forgiveness….  And actually and for real remorseful for all the  horrid things she has done.. but t she was raised to be a  whore and a criminal.. so I ‘m not supposed to hold her responsible for her actions… I guess..  and then she has a psychology   degree so when she torments and torturers people using all her skills.. as a  vicious and brutal and mean  bully… I was told that it was alright…  thatmaking me..mary jean ziska…cry.. is supposed to be alright…  because eh is the one doing it .. right???? so what is it like to talk to an enemy and never be allowed to talk to  the actual people who really love and care for me… It sucks… I missed taking  to Kathy young… and Carolyn walters.. and  Kathie higdon… even my aunt rita would have ruined this girls life if she knew how  much she ruined mine….but then she died… so I don’t have the people I  love and who know me and love me ..and she keeps trying to isolate me from  anyone  who could be a friend… like this guy Brian.. what  if he was  someone who was great… clean cut preppy..conservative.. actually a person who wears a collared shirt to dinner…. and normal no issues and problems… and what if I actually  even  met him… and he might remind me of my old friend e scott renshw and was a real friend… who would  protect me from bullies.. and  make my life better but instead I am surrounded by pure evil… selfish evil and horrid  people who actually harm my  life… to talk to and to have in my life… just a bunch of enemies.. who  manipulate.. who still ..  bully and who  still  are as evil and fake as can be… I must say the person on the phone tonight failed  as my loving and great mom… absolutely without a shadow  of a doubt failed as a real mother….

I miss my mom and my dad and my  sisters Maura Ann Ziska and Madelon Marie Ziska and all my real cousins.. and all my real friends…. Genuine real friends….  Ones who actually make your life better… who don t bully you.. who stick up for you and  your  rights.. and for the people who   know your  positive  qualities.. and really like you… I mean really like you…. God I miss  them every day for the past ten years I miss talking to  them…. Please come find me .. Help!!!!!!!

 I hate the  horrid and fake families who have girls or boys on the phone  who do nothing  but harm my They aren’t as brutal sa the bullies who used to make me cry every  day…  but it still hurts..and it is still harming my life… ..HELP!!!!!!

… I never asked to speak to any of them… ever I call my mom’s phone number the expected expectation is that you actually reach my mom…. I  never wanted to speak to  these fakes who are in the karne kahel fan club.. ever! .. ever……… never ever wanted  to talk to any of her friends or her family… ever… I have built up ten years of hatred for all of them… I remember every moment.. and I will never forget… or forgive… the people who harmed my life…  they have nothing  positive but harm my life… and I never want them to forget the damage they purposely inflict… and the harm they  caused.. and lives they ruined…  I will never forgive them or forget any of it… they owe me ten years of my life.. and I am never forgiving them for that. Ever! I want JUSTICE!….but I must say.. I do like that new show on ABC>> revenge…HA! Hummmmm

I miss the days when I could pick up the phone and actually talk to people who knew me and loved me.. who wanted to see me or spend time with me.. who actually did want to  make my life better.. and wanted me to be happy…

Speaking of phone conversation  I wanted to mention that I had a person hand me his phone… telling me it was my cousin Greg… and Greg was supposed to e in town… and I guess was supposed to come and see me.. or at least it was someone who wanted to get into my gate….  Anyway.. the conversation seemed to be pretty nice but a red flag went up when I told him I missed having a real date… and how I haven’t had any of those real dates probably in at least ten years…. And then ( this I will never forget…) he mentioned congegial  ( they don’t even have this workd in spell check…UGGG!!)  visits… like from prison.. and I about freaked… I knew a then…. At that exact moment…  I wasn’t  talking to my cousin Greg.. who was not in town to work on a roof.. but on some asshole who used prison terms … when thinking of seeing/dating  girls.. … AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! So who the hell was I spilling my guts to… who wanted to get into o my gate?

I also know my cousin Greg owns two wine bars and a coffee shop…  and if he was visiting  Florida from  Cleveland Ohio… why the hell would he be wasting time working on a roof…. When I thought of the neighbor who has a son who is a roofer…. Was it him or one of their friends e or co workers… on the phone.. I  just  feels so violated …..when you  think you are talking to someone and you aren’t …  when the freaks are actually having this other conversation. And not even listening….. When their answers make no sense in the context of the conversation you are having…

You can’t build any  real relationships… you can’t  even get to  have any real conversations…. You are alone and isolated… with a bunch of manipulating  idiots… who couldn’t care less… and who get way with lying, cheating and stealing from me…  who ruin  your  hope s and dreams… and who stay in my life just long enough for  someone to steal my identity.. or some wish or dream or hope that I wanted… and  they don’t steal it.. they will threaten to make me  feel that it will be taken  from me…

You can’t count on these people.. you shouldn’t  trust them ..and you definitely  can’t believe them or think they are actual friends… I have quotes on my wall about true friendship ….  What makes a true friend… how to  know what a true friend   ..

I MISS MY GENUINE LOVING FRIENDS AND FRIENDS….. and it didn’t help when I had freaks.. Telling me “I want the real may jean”…. And they” miss the real may jean”  then planning on anything… one person telling you they will  give you this..or help you with that… then you count on  their word being  a verbal contract.. and being something you can count on.. and then the next minute.. it all changes.. like a total new person making up rules of what they will help you with what they will do…  and then nothing gets done and more  things are broken.. and  you learn not to count  on anyone … that  the “freaks”  will only lie to you …. Yes lie right to your  face.. or tell you something and you have to try to figure e out what  or how whatever they are saying  will  affect your life  life…  hummmmm ..

I  wonder what they are planning on stealing this  time…..  after going through  a bunch of linens.. I am missing two large body towels  and two face towels… the ones my mom bought me from Niemen Marcus…  they were in my guest bathroom.. and since I basically wasn’t allowed to have any guests… ( psycho control freaks who don’t want me to have any friends…. ) they  weren’t used… like at all… practically brand new…

When I found that on  top of  all the other things still missing ..(like my pearl earrings.. and my diamond earrings.. and   of course the  kaki cashmere sweater… and the $240.00 stolen from  my black bag… last month… still missing…)

   anyway.. I spent two days writing my name on everything… except the two ripped pillow cases that someone left in my good linins.. And two   ripped white fitted bed sheet that also someone left in my good linens….  I mean what psycho freak not only steals or takes sheets or towels. Or anything from  anyone…. ( of course I  consider that stealing… most normal people do… right?)  but  then to rip them and then  put them back (?) .. what? like I wouldn’t notice?  

Anyway…. Besides someone thinking that I  am married.. or dating someone… or  some nationality that I am not… or any of the milions of stories that are completely untrue…. I just really miss my  genuine and loving friends and family…..  and I pray they can find me… and help me…  luv mary jean ziska

Well yesterday I was able to watch a few movies that I own on DVD…. While they were supposed to be on the television.. ( since I can’t receive those channels on television… HA!  But to my sheer delight… I  found that on channel 8 at 9  am I found  that  they show “ law and order”  now this is what is weird… cine I live in a condo  .. and all the condo’s are the same with the same wiring and cable running through all of them… why would I get channel 8 only on channel 9????????? And why would  someone have been able to manipulate my cable  and not any one else’s ..oh say perhaps a criminal… who liks  to mess with cables….like may alarm system…. And other wiring in my condo…  hummmmm  yep,  perhaps

 I know someone who doesn’t watch television.. Perhaps they decided in their executive manipulation of my  life that they had the power to take away something thy  didn’t need… that they .. were able to have the power like today… I mentioned that I was sooo happy to  be able to at least see one intelligent show on television … in the morning especially now while I   am working on clearing up a mildew issue…  so am elbow deep in working in my bedroom 

So get this…   this person  who heard me say that… I want to go and watch it( law and order)  .. what the  hell did they do….. I went in to my room… had the tv on… started watching it.. it started then poof….  The t v program was  all blacked out… It started .. then went to a black screen.. no law and order… All I could could of was how manipulative …. How  brutal… and how  evil… to take away  something  I enjoyed … was it the boy with the small ( you know  what….)  who has to compensate by feeling  big and powerful….  controlling girls.. and bulling them like karen kahel needs to do for someone to take away something you enjoy ..and to do it on purpose… hummmmm pretty psycho….. Very manipulative and very sick and evil….  

Then let’s go into the whole manipulating by fear….  Thng… telling me not to do this because …and just fill inthe blank of what horrid thing  is supposed to happen to me next….  What part of my life they will take away if I don’t … behave.. or do what is expected of me.. or what they want me to do that will be great for their lives but usually horrid for mine…   That is not my family.. not my friends… not what anyone who actually really knows me oar loves me would ever say or do….. like today I actually had my first apology… this fake horrid woman who is not my mom… told me over the  phone  that  I stole her Cartier watch….  And today they found it with her diamond necklace…. And on the phone the woman actually said she was sorry for accusing me..

 of course my real mom would have never in a million years ever even though such a disturbing and wrong assumption   about me….  Good god that is just ludicrous…. My mom knows my level of integrity…  and ethics. And knows that I have never stolen anything ……ever….  My mom loves me and actually wants to spend time with me….. Wants to make her daughter’s life better…. That’s what real mom’s do… they want you to be happy… they want you to find the love of your life.. they want you  to have a great life… full of wonderful experiences.. and of  amazing possessions.. And a life that is full of blessings…. Beautiful home… and children.. and a faithful and wonderful husband… a real mom or family does not take thing s away from  you life….like  you are in some third world country… where you are supposed to be censored. Or monitored. Or because you are a woman you are less than valuable….  That was definitely not my mom… my mom always  complimented me… I wonder if the conversations I had with these fake mom’s today… how o  it hurt my life and my Christmas…and who my family is… at least on  the phone….

By the one girl saying she was sorry… was that admitting that I had this horrid mom who actually thought I stole things…. Which I do not have…  and  when talking to her about ordering things on line to give as Christmas gifts…  to my sister Maura and my friend scott renshaw…  and even asking about the room rates in Naples during the holiday seasons…  hummmm the last phone  call I got… not a nice lady at all… in fact it had this rotary ring..and sounded funny…I told her to go and have Chris( there was a Kris Kelly who was helping   on line to take an order…. Who knows maybe it could be him…. )  or whoever is manipulating  my cables..and my phone…  sheesh..for the last ten years and purposely ruined my life… tell “them” to fix …..to fix everything… but of course they won’t… hacker freak gets a kick out of  manipulating lives… I even had one person tell me that I am supposed to speak Spanish… probably  because they  have some Spanish girl  stealing my identity..along with who know s who else these past ten years….  These are evil criminsls and they need to be stopped… HELP!they needed to be stopped ten years ago….  

wh to not receive certain channels?????? ….… well I only get it on channel 9 instead of channel…. 8 weird right… almost as if someon e was  manipulatin v my channels… I mena what type of psycho freak would take away the things that you love.. or manipulate yoru life to  harm you.. mus t be a controlling psycho freak….. who gets of on controlling woman