Thursday July 28th 2011@ 2:37am ( notes on phone conversations… wrong people on the phone… or wrong family?) y..)..

so in  i mentioned so many times about the
wrong  ans i mean really wrong people… late tonight my fake mom on the
phone  was bad mouthing my sister Maura.. saying she was cold   hearten
and unhelpful that she didn’t want to help me with my home auction
situation…  . or anything…. luckily i spoke with blake fletcher
earlier today… and yesterday and had him also confirm that my sister
is great… she is nice i mean she is a really strong and smart woman…
who knows her mind and who stands up for her beliefs.. but i know for
certain that she has a really sweet side  to her… and a really great
personality …. and who actually has a very sensitive side….  i
remember  talking to her abut the “soup for the soul stories”… and i
remember her talking about when  we imagined having children  children..
…actually ….when we both had children…( of course i never got to
have the opportunity)  and if we had the opportunity to raise
children…. it would be nice so that they knew their cousins… and so
that they could be friends…

 my sister actually both sisters   would  not have been so loved by all 
their  friends…  if  they were as mean as these people on the  phone
keep trying to make them …. and i know she( MAURA)   always has had so
many friends… maura and mattie coudl go to any town.. int any
place… and make freids.. and be loved by all…. really quickly… i
always admired that about them… i was sometimes a bit more shy around
strangers but woudl warm up after a while 

For some reason  people don’t  want me to have anyone who can help with 
this whole hoe auction… don’t  know if they are themselves making a
profit off my suffering…. or just sticking me with all the  wrong
people … who aren’t my friends or family….  or influential people 
who could actually help….  i couldn’t in a million years ever think
that my sister would want me to go through anything bad…. lose my home
over a simple and actully a small amout of money…. for most of  the 
real people i used to know….   and  the  continued 
misunderstandings… and the  series of  events that seem to have lead
here… mysiter maura is not soem mean ogar…. who want s me to go
through soethgn bad..jsut liek i had some idiot who said that she was
actually picking on my mom… how rdiculious…. totally not 
myisiter…. who woud lbe so cruel a sto pick n a 74 year old woman…
who mad sure   we had a great chidhood and who made sure that we had
evereythign  we ever needed includgn tris al aoud the world… and so
many woderful experiences…. i honstly thnkit has been 8 years of
havong the wrong family.. maybe longer… but  its jsut not right…. 
who  thought of this sick and psycho game of ruining families.. and
lives only to steal property and businesses ..  do they have a
consciousnss? do they have a loving mother or sister? 

Did i mention that i had someone telling  me they would help me… with
solving this whole auction thing and the right of redemption but that i
wasn’t  allow to work for the babysitting business s anymore?   What
type of freak could that have been? … didn’t sound like someone who
actually  knew a dam thing about what i did for the business… and how 
hard i worked with out pay ( which by the way is kicking me in the
rear… i need pay stubs and verification of income to get a loan from
the bank…  and if had those i wouldn’t have been trying to have any
assistance…  from friends and family…. (if i could actually get in
touch with them. the funny thing is … looking back on when i had the
15, 000. in petty cash  and  lots of business… i guess I  had alot of
friends … where are they now? .

since i cant reach anyone…. i am wondering if these were really great
friends.. or is it that the  scummy con artists have “used up”  all the
resources from  my friends…. because if ever i needed to contact my 
genuine friends and family now was the time….  I’m not sure now if
everyone was a true friends.. i think they were.. i usually select
really great people who are genuine… and not such swayed by if you
have money today or not.. in fact growing up in Saudi i don’t ever
remember ever thinking   about  money.. it just wasn’t an issue…  you
liked people for who who they were… and of course we were growing up 
with them….  in a small safe environment where everyone got to do
pretty much the same things….

 i cant even talk to them to let them know the conditions  i was trying
to set for repayments.. for interest.. or for even an extra bonus to
sweeten the  deal as they  say….

it is so frustrating to talk to someone whois supposed t know youand
really love you.. and hasnt a clue about what yoru family was really
like.. i sont know if allthese peole believe allthe lies… andi cant
stop the lies… irealized that with karn kahel…. and her lies…
telling me she knew my mother… and my own  mother was saying horrid
things about me.. just like the liar today  who is saying my sister 
would not  be nice and smart and  successful… and wouldn’t  jump
through  fire to be there for her family… ( who ever she knew must
have been as evil as her… to have to make others look bad and feel
bad  so that she could feel better about herself.. definitional of a
bully by the way….. and it was  more  for the boys she trespassed into
the strand for….  the boys  she screwed ….. those boys… may have
been the fake mothers who stuck up for a bully so they could get
laid…. and those boys and girls…  who wouldn’t be my choice for  my
friends or family ….  who could  have been on the  phone as my
mother..( you can change your voice to sound like a girl if your  a
boy…. that i researched… ) 

and these people are still getting away with saying bad things about me
and my family…. perhaps its the girl around the corner the boys play
with.. who likes upsetting me to tears or to raising my voice…. does
she  do it to try to prove she is superior… the better  person  who or
better family with her lies… gosh they are so pathetic… .anyway
enough of them… i guess iwont get to have my real family back unti i
see them in heaven.adn there will be no more bullies.. no more lies.. no
mare intentional manipulation… and it will be everything  i had
wanted my life to be like here….  .

 so looking back on 8 years of all of this.. not one full year of great
fun and peace and happiness without some major trauma or drama i was to
endure…   (  i still for the life of me think of  what  i could have
possibly  done to  have so many horrible people pick on me.. so much..
and destroy  pretty much all of my life….  but i mentioned before .. i
now know that  I i don’t matter… they have made that fact perfectly
clear… also I  realized that it  was or is like  this whole horrible
series of horrid events is all calculated… the  gilr who stole 
messages.. from our phones and files from my home… .eventually stole a
business (my mom started in 1990… ) . then they  completely shut us
out of a business  that  was my mom’s legacy… and  stole  a business
by stealing  the babysitting jobs…  stealing contracts  … and
well…. doing anything and everything   underhandedly…  jsut not
ethical.. moral or good business.. in the long run i hope what goes
around comes around  for  these thieves….   i have thousands of thee
type of examples and experiences that have changed the  course of my
life .. and  who  maliciously and  with deliberate  intent  were
executed by whoever these  people are…… i know they are not brave
enough to  own up to their responsibility for ruining lives… when i
say  i wasn’t paid ( by whoever was pretending to be my mom at the
time…. )  for they years  of work  helping to create websites.. and
all sorts  of avenues for advertising, marketing,   deemed necessary
for  a business to succeed… these people on the phone… sometimes get
really defensive..  one time it was like argue with a bratty little
kid… who wanted to justifiy why he or she stole…. there is no
excuse.. hate to tell you people .. but you can lie all you want .. what
you did  was wrong… to steal is wrong…  you should have to deal
with the consequences of your actions.. just like i have to live with 
the consequences of your  actions…. your lies on the  phone……
.your bulling just unforgivable….    ( you know i realized that karn
kahel never once said she was sorry…. not once… )  hummm you boys
still think karen, katie or kimmy or whoever is nice?

another example…  happening right now… now.. trying to reach people
who would  help …. in a heartbeat…  they would help… but after
years of god only knows what was told to them…  so many people are
probably not wiling to believe  everything… an now is when i really
need to make sure i can reach my genuine friends and family…. for
real…. but   by  manipulating  the emails.. and the messages… they
have not only wasted precious time… but  not allowed a positive
solution for a horrible situation… i know for a fact that my sister
Maura could have fixed  all of this before the condo went up for
auction…. she is a real estate lawyer…. she would have most probably
had the  lawyers  fees and interest dismissed..or waived.. she would
have know all about he right of redemption… and all the  things i
have  to learn about on my own…  but just by getting rid of the 
fees.. the total due would have been so much less… approx.  21,000 to
come up with….. and i bet she would have been able to post pone  or
work out a settlement that i could have used the  equity in the 
condo… to redeem the value.. so i could have paid it myself…. . and
it would have been all over in a few days if not a week….   if you are
able to  talk to the correct and helpful people  it would have  been
fixed…. easily fixed… and for my benefit… and there wouldn’t be a
horrible outcome that is totally  the result  from the manipulation of
the situation….  once again i say… malicious intent….
premeditated, deliberate… and calculated…..

Maura has never been like some punishing god who wants to harm me… its
not who i ever  knew as my sister….  ask gloria fletcher.. or blake
fletcher… or anyone who knows her….   for Gods sake this isn’t a
game it is my real life…. and i have to deal with the real
consequences of not  begin able to contact the family/friends  who can
help me make everything right…  dont you get it?… you  are ruining a
real life.. my real life….

again i repeat.. my sister Maura.. is not like some punishing  GOD…
who is out to  harm me to see what will happen .. or worse yet who
doesn’t  care what will happen… she just wouldn’t . do that or be like
that …. she’s a great lawyer…. with great advice… and i know
would have fixed this  situation in a minute…. ….

It feel as if these sickos onteh phone also  don’t want me to have  any
friends.. and especially  any  friends  who made wise choices and have 
secure  finances….  even family or friends  that would  be willing to
help so i could just borrow  the money .. get my home back..then pay
them  back….. some of  these people on the   phone have  wanted to
really profit and  i mean big time profit… off my misfortune.. ..  
they have yelled at  me.. not knwing anything aobut me or mywork ethic..
theytellme to go get a job… that  they have been  telling me this for
years… which is a lie.. that acuallyjstu started recently… of couse
th eiditos ont he phone dont knwo tha i helped mymom whtn i ws 10 or 11
and  we allhelped withher tours… learneto ansere th aphone with
proper etiquette… and  gained tha entrpreneural spitit. aobu the same
time…HA! theydont knwo tha kathey yung an i  started a peanut brittle
busniess.. when we wer 11 or 12… that  i thought it ws funto hve money
adn starte busnesses.. i still do…. in fact they had no idea tha i
had contracts   15,000.00  per project… when i was still faux painting
for my own  business… with a minimum of $825.00 to walk into  a room (
including stenciled boarder or a powder bath… to do anything…. that
my  contract s for  the projects.. the sample boards.. and every aspect
of the business.. i was excited to create…  all i can say is that  i
know  last year when i was working with  group of sitters  at the 
Edwards Jones group….  one sitter named Andrea mots said her husband
was yelling  at her to get a job.. now i never met the man…  and i
don’t know who  these people are acting like but  I can definitely  tell
you i don’t enjoy this personality at all…..not one bit!…  who
needs about be accused of not working enough.. or yelled at to go get a
job when they  know nothing of me or my life…  and my family  helped
to chose careers not just jobs.. and carers that you were passionate
about… my dad was really big on finding something hat you liked to
do… since when you love what you do it isn’t like work…

 i can tell you … the truth… its just not the same….   nothing
like  that philosophy…  has one  of the conversations… nothing 
nice.. and thought provoking… or inspirational…  who are these
people? mostly  i get upset at them trying to predict a horrid future
for me…  or who are they acting like?…. its not like  my family…. 
and its like  sometimes it is a repeated  tape… nothing real or
original..or normal… hen they find a sore spot.. like i get sensitive
when they talk bad about  my sisters..then they  so for the  kill… and
try to make me really upset.. or when they want t me to believe the 
worst thing ever…. ..that i have to move from a home i have had
since1999…. that my mom and dad helped  me to pick out… lose my home
and have nothing…then they l go on and on until i have a stomach ache
and get mad… and eventually cry…. ….  its  like they have a
series f scripts thy read from… or a series of events/ stories….
with the argument.. the same hurting…  but like different people
saying the same things…. does that make any sense… its like they
only know one page of dialogue.. nothing before the page and nothing
after.. jut one page…..and if its  rotten page…. then  i get to cry a
lot…. and its like the girls know who might  be listening.. who they
want to  make me look bad for and how…   they are clever i must give
them that.. and sneaky and of course so fake it isn’t  funny i bit they
put on a fake smile and act so sweet.. ( not  genuine in the
least….especially  if they can bully….. like they do… well… then
ti guess evil comes in all sorts of packages… )  but karne used to
actually trespass at eh exact moment  i was leaving my fact a
few times she ran right in front of my car…. and i would be upset for
house… same with the cards i would  get that  were post marked from
Cleveland.. and anonymous.(of course) .. but had mean messages
inside…. i  eventually became  so frightened to open anything… that
might be from the bullies… an their families…. and when i did  by
mistake… i and would get upset…it would take so long to calm down…
i guess that is why they did it to spoil holidays…     

   my voice  is horse.. and stomach hurts.. i hate that thee strangers
want me to have this horrid unloving and rotten family… so not only 
is it o.k. to bully me… and make me cry.. but to isolate me form real
family members who actually know and love me…

 i’m assuming since  they have tried to get me to speak bad of y
sisters.. they  have most probably done this to them… made them speak
bad of me?.. or did my sisters  stand up for me? ..i wonder…. 
anyway… tired and  have written allot…  its ashame thiswebsite was
supposed to be all about he fun of dating and meeting mr. right… and
love and romance.. and….