Sat. December 16th 2011 @1:13am( Fri What is it like to talk to the enemy… on the phone tonight and for the pst few days when i call my mom’s number that is what i get…


So what is it like to talk to the enemy… or live with an enemy…. Today actually on the phone tonight…. At precisely 11:23pm …. Fri December 16th 2011… I had a woman on the phone who actually told me that she didn’t want me to meet some guy Brian… and get this ..she didn’t  want  me to meet Brian or anyone ..  because she was afraid that I would mention karen kahel..or all the hell  I’ ve been through in the past ten years.. and how my life was ruined by these criminals and whores…   because I would mess it up.. of  course  the woman couldn’t think of any positive qualities for  me .(DEFINATELT NOT MY MOM!!!!. and she also wanted to make sure that I dint say anything negative about Karen kahel… hummmm of course it wasn’t my mom…. Or even a friend.. but guess what… one  of the bullies form ohio.. no doubt.. so makes me ashamed to have been born there…. Especially  when I have to deal with  scummmm who are so reprehensible… possibly one of her relatives…(?)  or perhaps the bully herself… but its fri. night I doubt that she wouldn’t be out drinking or worse… bulling transgressing.. or   lying and ruining families and  lives..  …. Conning someone one.. to make sure she gets that leased BMW to  flash around… ha… .. gosh I wonder  if I should expect  that  unsigned….   Christmas card( covered with Jesus stickers… )  sent from  a  Cleveland postmark… and with  a mean message in it.. .. gosh  those made me cru for days… think I was actually getting a card from a relative.. but instead getting a card for the enemy…. And her Ohio state disgusting family….. or hummm but of course it is fri. and of course probably karnekahel  must be spreading her legs open for some  boy or two..  HA!…. just kidding… HA! you know it takes a lot of whoring around to get that leased BMW…. After ruing innocent people’s lives.. HA! Gosh and the way she handles people  on the phone.. even the  idiots she hires to do all her dirty work… .. I mean  what talent it takes to lie and  get people upset.. and bully… just sooo impressive HA!


(Of  course I am being  sarcastic… I hate the witch…. But it must take some talent to raise  children to be criminals.. I still haven’t found  out if the one little girl in port royal who stole my cashmere sweater.. and the  treasure hunt cards… and the Thomas bubble blowers…  actually was related to her… but she had the blond hair and the freckles. And the same  hair raising   persona.. you know .. when you are around pure evil and the hairs in your arm raise… yep this little girl did the same thing just like Karen…. k!


And I have a niece who has has the most beautiful blond hair.. and blue eyes… but is soo sweet… it has to be in the way the person comes into this world.. a bully  and criminals is a bully and criminal.. or the way they are raised. So if she is related to Karen kahel…. It just makes sense.. not an excuse.. but makes senses….


Opps I should say allegedly whoring around.. right.?HA! I mean if she is allowed to  say anything   and everything and I have to talk to some  witch on the phone. Who sticks up for her instead of her own daughter… .and  the idiot who comes for dinner is even going to act like the bitch…. And  to boot… I’m not  permitted to talk to any of my  real friends  who  by the way  would never say any of these things… to me… no real friend is going to  protect a bully… one  who bullied you… and protect or stick up for a girl who is  so evil she makes people cry.. on purpose.. then jumps up and down to say she won she won. Like  Charlie  sheen… she ‘s into winning…  and bulling and trespassing and I guess she believes she is above the  law or any rules.. or anything decent or noble or  honorable   When I wrote  about where are the men with integrity.. where the hell are the women with integrity.. the women who make those life long friends… that you can count on .. that   are loyal.. and decent .. and have morals and values.. and who stick up for their   friends.. and would never allow a bully “to WIN” … what is it like to talk to the enemy…. It is horrible.. it is  lonely and it is  unforgivable…..


 


what is it like talking to a witch..the emeny… the bully herself… who will twist words   and try to make your  life hell.. will try to  make  you  look bad.. well for the past two days on the phone that  is all it has been… I also had this person fred over for dinner  and   when she waked in with sweet bay  (susposedly… I was told  the ohio’s favorit place to shop…. ) and  then tried  to tell me acting as if he is Karen kahel… that even though  I hate her/him .. he will pray for me… what a crock. he didn’t pray for dinner… unless I pray  when I sit down and pray… before  dinner.. .but was trying to make “her” look like she is sooo saintly… a whore who  screws a guys in a pool while l I am babysitting her 3 month old son in 2005… who   purposely trespassed and bullied .. who harmed so many people  .. Without one word of sorrow…  did that whore actually think of praying for me when she was bulling me to tears(?) .. or  trespassing  to get a better chance to bully  no not one  bit of  remorse.. not one” I am sorry”…. Ever… and  to continue to do the same actions …. harass me.. and everything  she said or did.. to harm my life… no of course not but today someone is pretending that the bully and trespassing whore… is a saint.. What a  crock….


 I prayed for her too.. that one day she will be on her knees begging  for forgiveness….  And actually and for real remorseful for all the  horrid things she has done.. but t she was raised to be a  whore and a criminal.. so I ‘m not supposed to hold her responsible for her actions… I guess..  and then she has a psychology   degree so when she torments and torturers people using all her skills.. as a  vicious and brutal and mean  bully… I was told that it was alright…  thatmaking me..mary jean ziska…cry.. is supposed to be alright…  because eh is the one doing it .. right???? so what is it like to talk to an enemy and never be allowed to talk to  the actual people who really love and care for me… It sucks… I missed taking  to Kathy young… and Carolyn walters.. and  Kathie higdon… even my aunt rita would have ruined this girls life if she knew how  much she ruined mine….but then she died… so I don’t have the people I  love and who know me and love me ..and she keeps trying to isolate me from  anyone  who could be a friend… like this guy Brian.. what  if he was  someone who was great… clean cut preppy..conservative.. actually a person who wears a collared shirt to dinner…. and normal no issues and problems… and what if I actually  even  met him… and he might remind me of my old friend e scott renshw and was a real friend… who would  protect me from bullies.. and  make my life better but instead I am surrounded by pure evil… selfish evil and horrid  people who actually harm my  life… to talk to and to have in my life… just a bunch of enemies.. who  manipulate.. who still ..  bully and who  still  are as evil and fake as can be… I must say the person on the phone tonight failed  as my loving and great mom… absolutely without a shadow  of a doubt failed as a real mother….


I miss my mom and my dad and my  sisters Maura Ann Ziska and Madelon Marie Ziska and all my real cousins.. and all my real friends…. Genuine real friends….  Ones who actually make your life better… who don t bully you.. who stick up for you and  your  rights.. and for the people who   know your  positive  qualities.. and really like you… I mean really like you…. God I miss  them every day for the past ten years I miss talking to  them…. Please come find me .. Help!!!!!!!


 I hate the  horrid and fake families who have girls or boys on the phone  who do nothing  but harm my They aren’t as brutal sa the bullies who used to make me cry every  day…  but it still hurts..and it is still harming my life… ..HELP!!!!!!


… I never asked to speak to any of them… ever I call my mom’s phone number the expected expectation is that you actually reach my mom…. I  never wanted to speak to  these fakes who are in the karne kahel fan club.. ever! .. ever……… never ever wanted  to talk to any of her friends or her family… ever… I have built up ten years of hatred for all of them… I remember every moment.. and I will never forget… or forgive… the people who harmed my life…  they have nothing  positive but harm my life… and I never want them to forget the damage they purposely inflict… and the harm they  caused.. and lives they ruined…  I will never forgive them or forget any of it… they owe me ten years of my life.. and I am never forgiving them for that. Ever! I want JUSTICE!….but I must say.. I do like that new show on ABC>> revenge…HA! Hummmmm