So i am just now getting back from publix and from church.. father kelly gave mass.. I was a bit late.. my alarm didn’t go off at the right time… but I really didn’t sleep very well…  with calling  the police and talking to a bunch of kids on the phone… and worring that my mother’s house was being used by a bunch of criminals.. and worried tha tsomene was steling from my mother and my family… like they have stolen from me when I had gone babysitting…

I kept trying to think ..who cuuld it possibly be.. wh coudl be on teh phone…. so rude and so youn g. they wer ntheing liek the real police…  who  could be on the phone.????..  teh liars who were sayng tha tpeopewer ni touwn they jdudt didnt want  me to know they were here.
WHAT???? that i s then not my family… if my sisters were in  town.. they love me and woudl want to see me.. i mean myreal sisters… woudl be like that ….. jsut like my real mothe ror fatehr..  big hugs.. generous… and loving… eople who believe in you.. believe in yoru dreams.. who help to inspire you to achieve.. to be the best possible…  real family..my real family would never hurt me… NEVER EVER hurt me… NEVER sacrifice myhappiness.. my life… for their own selfish intensiotns.. they dont lie to me.. they don’t cheat me out of money or out of great and fun experiences.. they dont make you cry.. or want you to cry… 

 a real mother and sisters actully are happier when you are happier.. that is how I always  am…. when you really love someone…. you  actually will  practiically  do anything to make sure that  they are  happier .. (I mean i don’t  hurt anyone……. to get what I want …….jsut like I don’t steal.. or lie…  but i guess this fake group of what?.. actors?.. or liars?..conatrists?.. who the hell are they?????


a  group of poeple who came into town for the  weekend?  .. this group of people who are playng  god with people’s lives… who are playing like they are a familly?????????.. but are what????? jsut a bunch of con artists… who got together  to steal..to lie…. to cheat.. but they  do it togeteher.??????  …. they actully lied  to me… about all of  this.. about everything…  and this supposed sister.. who never calls or talkes to me.. who doesn’t go  lunches together…. or come over to go shopping.. to  even come over to have a  visit… who  who lies so i don’t  know  when  she is in town..????? What ?????  that is supposed to be the same person  i grew up with  .. who is my best friend???????….who couldn’t wait to see me.. and who I couldn’t wait to go and see??????…That is a best friend????? that is supposed to be  the  person who used to come over and…..we coudl talk for house about plans.. and deams.. and encourage each other tha t ther is a great a nd perfect guy out there.. adn that allthings were possible… who used to  ask  me to come over to palm beach   all the time.. who I talked to on the phone all the time.. each and everyday…many times a day…becaue she actually liked me…  

are you really trying to make me think that this isthe same  person  who sneaks into naples.. who lies to me.. who doesnt contact me…   NOOOOOOOthat is nothing like my sister… or i guess my mother either .. no real family  who is  loving  and caring  is ever like  that….at least not my family….     


  but  low and behold.. when I went to church..  a person who wasn’t even supposed to be here in town… and was supposed to be my loving sister  mattie ziska  was standing right there with  marion ….. ( or is it meriam.. i was actially told when i was in college… by gloria  fletcher that my mom was meriam…I just  thought that everyone was gettng names mixed up…. is it possible that these groups… get together  because they look like people  from a family…  but they are not….. they are jsut what????????? con-artiss who get toghether for the sole purpose  of harming others …….and what are they the  same group  who seal idenities?????


You people  failed as my real family.. but then i guess they dont care.. they have some imposter playing me.. and the bonus is they  put me through hell for  8 years…. 8 years that they lied to me.. cheated me out of my inheritance.. cheated me out of mybusiness… my goals…  my dreams… stole from  me…..  broke into my home.. used my food .. my clothing.. my idenity… for what?????  ahd the little whores havgn sex in my bed with whaever by they wer tryign to catch… to snag a guy for some little whore?  who is a fake?????

on my way back from church ther was an entire entrage…  starting with a silver jag. very dark tinted windows.. then i recongnzed a whte audi…  ( remember i thought  i saw my cousin mark in it… )  some other cars that looked familar and peolpe who looked familar… all headed on immokalee towards st. johns.. or at least 41…. youthnkthe fake friend i saw  inthe silfer truck..with the gis inteh white honda… thnkthey switched clothes and cars .. for  their brunch…
 
I myself got some scones..at publix…I really love them… and made a poached egg.. asparagus.. sliced tomatoe.. and tea… and of course I get to eat breakfast all by myself…an in tears… at teh betrayal of all these peolple who were  supposed to be my friends.. or loving  family… theybetrayed my trust theyused and abused my life my credit.. me… they sacrificed my life… for what???????? is yoru litel whore imposter girl.. is she really  worth it…. may god never have mercy onther souls… but they probably don’t believe in God.. all they ned  is to steal money….    
 


.. …i guess they stopped wanting me to be around since I  know  all the real stories  all the real events… ones they can’t piece together from a picture…. ….and when they screw up the stories  I correct them…  like the time i had a fake sister who was telling people in palm beach that we owned an elephant… WHAT?????? we rode on plenty of elephants… but nver owned an elephant…   

 
So  you know that gypsy  wedding.. or wedding where i was worried that  my mom would  have somethng stolen… and then  last night when the  hang ups  from a land line phone where no  was supposed to be there…. and the scummm …..  people protecting good old karen kahel.. and the bullies or the people who lied to me.. or who stole from me.. or who are still stealing from ..me in the form of businesses… or in the form of me evengetting to see my real family or fiends who love me…. who like me… but these imposters…. ..who allowd me to sacrifice 8 years of my life… and who on purpose put me through hell…  are  now trying to what??? be peope who say they love me..and they want to protect me and they want to help me make wise choices.. WHAT THE HELL…  wehn allthey have done is hurt me.. and they really  and hnestly dont care about meat all….

I freaked…. eight years of lies… of people maniulating my life……. . my businesses.my friendships… my telephone conversations.. all so they could get what they wanted out of l
ife?????????? are they the same people who  created  credit cards in my name? ruined my credit… stole my pearl earrings that my dad gave me? …stole my  life?… the same bitchy new york scumm who dragged me through new york..in 2003. not alloweing me to really shop..or really have fun.. but  because i looked similar to someone… they use used me liek gerard wnted to use mye and the back of myhead…  because they he tought i culd be mistatken for someone with a ob hair cut sheo id fivve foot four inches.. and  blond adn white caucausian…  are ehse the same girls from the west palm beah home  who  said “SCORE” when  i handed over a diamond and saphire ring that my sister maura told me to take care of for her….  or the same girls … the   same girls who would switch out a nice new sweater   i would wear and bring over… with an old ratty one because they had a look alike fake in her 20’s or 30’s who will lie for them .or cheat for them or steal for them….or spread her legs for the boys and and  then have their bastard babies….

same bitchy group who  sacrificed my life..my real life for ther little  look alike imposter whore…

and peole knew what was hapepening.. they knew all  about it… they lied and cheated and stole fo each other…   

I never lied to anyone  i never cheated anyone out of anything  never stole for anyone or stole from anyone…  .let alone ever stole… i never hurt anyone and these peole intensionslly hurt people.. hurt me…  

 do they have any idea how much i have had to sacrifice ??? how much i went without…. how much i went  through… they dont care… they will never care they  are  con artists.. and liars.. and cheats..  who lie and then go to church… what a joke..

and last night i reallythought it had to be rigina..brown and the other babysitters for  my  mom’s busness… includng her  daughter….. seh was  women e who didnt like peol eswearing.. then thegirls  who wer trying t make sure that they kepthery  festivities secrete…   and shei ale asn andrea motts and her group.. the ones on the phone.. teh people who lied to me… wheo er laughting and teling me tha the perosn nat mymther’s huse didnt want  me to knw hey wer here…. guess while i get to cry  karen kahel or anyof the other  conartiss getot jup upand down again and  say they won they won    ..     

these scummy girls and boys fromwet palm beach..or is it miami… or where????
and who gave them the right…

wheni was driving to church i saw one of the scott renshaw lookaliked in a nay baseballcap and ble shrt in  aasilver truck… heading  toward the strand.. and then here ws a firlwhit a bob hair cut rally darkk har butsome blond hight lights… in a white honda..all headded to teh strand…  wonder if they are playng eith eth bastard kids in my complex today… or if this cold possibly be an actual friedn…