so i did have 2 days where i was allowed to babysit.. i ay allowed since the people answering the phones fo rmy mother’s business.. a tender loving care service are alwys the poeple incharge if mymother’s business. and incharge of handing out jobs… i had called mymother’s home and cell many times and she was always going out on this last minute job…. so there were plenty of calls coming in.. had alwys been calls coming in.. and i’m guessing will always be calls coming in for business… but as i mentioned .. it is whoever answers her phone who seems to be incharge of the busness calls.. and actually of manipulating mnay lives in the process…
so igot to babysit in bonita at teh trianon… on: fri. the 27th form 4:30 unitl apox 10:30 i think I actully stayed until 11pm… and again on sunday from 4:30pm unilt 9:30pm…. .
of course the rwas yesterday memoriaal day… and my momcame over… ( no going out for the real mary jean ziska… not when allteh boys and girls are in townHA!>>>>
and so today.. was basically clean up day.. and reorganizing the bbystitng supplies… and i realized that on mytop shelf.. manyof the toys/games had been put back oin th ewrong place.. and probably had been played with… strange right? i know the mom who was here talked under her breath and mentioned kim….??? there was this girl kim…. tand today wheen skyping… someone was tryng to say my eyes were really blue.. when they are blueish.. and maybe a bit green but not remarkably blue… ( really odd comment right? ) but it was when the skype the skype was frozen and her voce didnt match her words…..
i mentionedthat before when i had been talkngto scott i could have sworn tht the conversations were not in real time but seemed to be taped…. which means they are probably taping my responses..or at lest teh video of myrespnses.. god only knows what they ould possibly be saying when its not me doing the speaking… sheesh..
the point i was trying to make… about being speaking eith mymom.. and the mixups… regina.. actually thought i had moved into a new place…. or maybe it was she that had moved…. but she mentioned that I was goign to be traveling through europe this summer… which i mentioned to mysister inan email..that i really wanted us to do together.. but never heard back form her.. wonder if one of the imposters got her to pay for a triop to europe? or for new items for a new place to love? i know inmymother’s house i sw some new pillows form bed bath and beyond… and once the women wer running aorund getting all kinds of items or a girl the boys had decide to put up in a new place… and so i was able to get a few new pilows… but actually it ended up beign only by defult… as i gues when they mess up the phone communication.. happends.. i get left overs.. or a manipulated life… dependig on what stories they want me to know…. pretty rotten of these women and girls.. but then they only thnk of themselves and of ther own needs and wants.. and they dont reallycare how they get what they want…… even if it breaks the law…
so ina conversation… the name kim was mentioned… mymother doenst know any km unless she is speaking of the kim who was from palm beach… a feind of my sister’s maura… or posibly.. i was once told that there was a karen , kim and katy…. UGG. coudl you imagine three of the tresspassing bully scum???
so today i am tryingot peice together the babysitting out of the way … the chldrens’games that were put back in the wrong order… and the mention on skype.. with the additon of the wierdness of teh chldren i seem to babysit for look nothing like their parents.. but what is really even more strange… some of the children look so much like other groups i babysat for and the parents of those other groups…. is seems way too compicate too mess up lives and stories of who people are… and what family they really belong to.. and then i wonder why bother to go to so much trouble to conceal identies of chidren… of family names.. and of locations for sitting…
to make matter even more complcated.. i mentioned that the perosn i was speaking to on the phone the other day.. evening really and even on memorial day was desperatly trying to make me a person with a history that only included the few years we lived in brandon florida.( which i was only 6 mohts old until 4 years old… not much of a life there…. ) for a while anyway.. then igot to speak with manuria … so i guess i was allowed to have my life in saudi. that was 10 and a half years… . from 7 until 17… eith a few years of boradign school in there…. but these people are hell bent on making my famly appear to be less than they are.. or even to diminsh any of the great places we have traveled.. or any of the acomplishements …. and i have no logicle explanation…except there are some really petty and small minded people out there … or maybe it si to hae me belong to someother family so they can steal teh blessings form my real famly… like they have been stealing b-day presents.. and christmas presents.. and even blessings in inheritances concerning personal items…. for years… ( ie i dont have in my possession my own baby blanket…. and soeone stoel those pictures… of sorority date functions.. and even the pictures of me backpacking in europe… )
so is someoen was in myhome again.. and with kds.. and playing games.. i am wondering if someone is again pretending my home is their home… and god only knows what could possibly come out of this new lie…
i am also wondering if everyone lives/ and works on a schedule… so different people are on the phones at different times.. or different people are on different phone lines… because they have differnt stories at times… its just all weird i just don’t want them messing with my life any more than they have already ruined it….