christmas input for christmas card to maura eric caroline and ella

Dearest Maura, Eric, Caroline, and Ella,                                                  December
2012

Mary Christmas 2012… and happy new year….  I wanted to  make sure to 
write to you  this Christmas…to
tell you that  I hope this past year of 2012
was  great  for all of you … I wanted to say that  in my prayer every evening  I pray  that your family is  protected from harm, that you are  blessed even more in 2013… That all your
wishes and dreams do come true, that love, family and friends surround you and
your family now and always…

I can’t put into words all the  love I have for all of you, (even though I’ve
never even had the opportunity to meet Ella… yet…)  I can’t believe time has gone by so fast and
it’s already Christmas and New Year’s… awaiting 2013….

Maura, Eric, Caroline and Ella… May you be blessed  now and always – I honestly wish only the best
for you and your family… I am so proud to have had the opportunity to have you
as my family and I honestly do love and miss you all every minute of every day…

There are  so many
important and valuable things to remember and to say  during the holidays…so let me start by saying  that I don’t 
believe that love ever dies or  that 
true just doesn’t go away… or end… 
you know that true love of family, friends even cherished  memories…  they don’t go away…..until you are dead and I
am hoping they stay  with you in heaven….

I have cherished all 
those great memories and kept them close to my heart  these past 13 years…. every minute of every
day… No matter what people said to me or tried to make me believe….. I always
knew the real truth… my real truth… the truth of what I know of my family and of
how amazing they are… Of the honest and genuine love I have known   my entire life from my real family…  that has been my constant  through these 13 years of horrible
experiences… ….and  I want to thank you
for your constant love and your friendship over my lifetime….

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year, love Mary Jean Ziska

My Dearest Sister Maura a special note:

I wanted to take a moment to let you know how much you made
a difference in my life… From growing up together in Saudi, (Ras Tanura), to
boarding school (Villa Maria) to college (the University of Florida) and
beyond… Your strength and character… Always so evident… I always admired how
you stood up for your beliefs, your friends, and your family… How you were able
to do and be anything you set your mind to…

I loved the softer side that you didn’t always show
everyone, the ability you had to love and the openness of your heart and your
authentic friendship! I was blessed to have you as a sister… To spend time with
you while we grew up and grew into the people we were supposed to be…

I’m genuinely glad you became such a remarkable woman and I
know you’re mark on the world will be amazing: strong and lasting… Your legacy
will not only be your children,  family
and career… But also the lives you’ve touched… All the people you’ve helped who
have better lives today because you were a part of their lives…

My life was  better by
you being a part of it…. And I thank you Maura Ann Ziska for your love, your
friendship, and for being my real sister –

Nothing is like the  genuine love, devotion, and caring that real
family and friends can give…  And I mean no one lives up to the
expectation and the reality of who  real
family and friends really are….  Maura, your
past, present and future are showcased in the genuine love you have for your
family and friends!

These past 13 years have been the worst years of my life,
with the worst experiences, and the worst people ever imaginable!  I have hated the experience,  every minute of every day    I hated that when I went to reach for the
phone… with the expectation of genuine family and friends of conversation and
encouragement… of shared beliefs and shared goals… of true  friendship 
and unconditional love… only to find manipulation and lies… bulling and
constant destruction of my life and my family by the  untruths  and cons and criminal manipulation of a group
of people I never asked to be in my life and never wanted in my life…. and who
ruined my life, who destroyed my soul and who were never  my family or friends….  I have missed the constant contact of genuine
family and friends every minute of every day!

I regret almost every moment   of 13
years of my life but most of all I regret never being allowed to continue the
relationship with my real family uninterrupted by con artists, criminal scum,  and  greedy  manipulators
 whose 
 selfish motivation ruined my
life! I regret the horrible people who conned their way into our lives because
I was trusting, gullible and honest…. I regret that they have harmed my life
beyond repair,    and allowed me to go through hell for their
own selfish intent… I regret these people, through their manipulation, their
God like complexes, their lies, their cheating, their stealing, and their deceit
stole my hopes and dreams…. And manipulated relationships and opportunities…   and I regret that I learned to hate…. Because
of all of them….I regret everything,
but most of all I regret never being allowed to be the person I was meant to
be…  to have the  relationships I was supposed to have…never
allowed ot be just me… and be happy….  These
 selfish vindictive horrible people who
were  never supposed to be in my life and
 who ruined lives and families….
businesses and  by  bullying, lying cheating and stealing  they ruined lives and they were never stopped
by anyone…

what was destroyed by these manipulative con artists cannot
be repaired…. what they  stole has never
been replaced  ….. the time and  opportunities of 13 years cannot be regained
or  duplicated…   It’s all unforgivable ….

But most of all….I miss all of us….  and I wanted to tell you this Christmas…. How
much I valued you as my sister… and  Maura,
like the  beautiful card/note  you gave me at our sorority initiation  we are sisters in real life… and in Kappa
Alpha Theta,  “all things were  possible”  you wrote of how you wanted us to be able to
have families  where we could babysit
each other’s kids… where we   were  supposed to be able  to, make holidays special with families… and
friends….  be able to support each
other’s hopes and dreams… and lives… and I had imagined  the closeness we shared throughout our
lives   would continue forever… I wish we
had been able to  share the same  moments and memories  for holidays and for those life changing
important moments…   or even the daily
conversations of friends and sisters…. I miss that  we  didn’t
get to talk every day…or even once a week…. To keep our bond  strong… 
but I loved and missed you every minute of every day… over these past 13
years… 

 No matter what
happens for the  rest of our lives…  I want you to remember how much I love you… always
have and always will …. Some  days I can’t
wait to be dead  and  in heaven so that one day we can be safe… and
be  with the same  real amazing sisters  again….where  bad horrible people will never be able to harm
us… I pray for your protection from harm every day…. for the criminal scum to
not hurt you or your family for the con artist’s lies, cheating, and stealing
never to reach you,  your family and your
friends…

I’ve never been the type of sister who was or is ever
jealous of you …. Because  Maura, instead
I have always been so proud to have you as a part of my family  and to have you as one of my best friends  and my sister…I always believed when mom would
sing  from the movie White Christmas “sisters”…
And believed our bond could withstand anything …. I believed that together we  could  do anything…. Like The Three Musketeers….    ” all for one and one for all” …  the dreams we dreamed  individually or collectively… would all come
true I know it now sounds a bit sappy… 
but we each had our strengths… and together  mom knew we would be so strong….   

I don’t know if I did enough for you… or told you enough how
much I admired you…. how intelligent you are,  how beautiful you are both  inside and out…. and how I always knew you
would be successful… that you would be a great mother and lawyer and how much
you are loved by her family and friends…

I hope I told you enough  that your ability to draw people toward you –
to command attention  in the most subtle
ways and to make friends and acquaintances 
everywhere you go is amazing… All that you do…. For so many people….. For
 all of it I  thank you!  

I thought one day I would be so successful I could bless you
and your family… I thought I could  come
in and make sure your hopes and dreams would come true…I’m sorry Maura,   Sorry
my life wasn’t able to turn out anything like I had hoped or planned  and I couldn’t bless your family …. I’m sorry that
these 13 years of hellish  experiences
that I have hated… being  a part of…  I’m sorry if I was a burden  for you and your family… I’m sorry that the
people who stole identities who stole my business my dreams my hopes my wishes
who ruined everything in my life….. I’m sorry if their slime has ever rubbed
off on to you  or your family…. I pray
the slime that hurt my life didn’t also ruin parts of your life… I want you to
always remember how much I loved you…how much  I tried to keep positive but it’s too hard
when evil “WINS” it just gets too hard……

I really  miss what
should have happened in this lifetime with the three Ziska sisters …  for these past thirteen years…  I miss the life I should have had and I miss
my family every minute of every day… I miss that the hard work and purposeful
achievement of business  goals  were stolen ….  that hopes and dreams once realized  were stopped… and that  that ambition and intent were manipulated only
to be crushed….  that  beliefs and faith were not only tested but
destroyed….. and that the hopes and dreams 
of a lifetime have been ruined….  But
that is my life…   luckily not your
plight…..

I am so proud to have been a part of your life Maura…  and hope you’ll always remember our sisterhood
and relationship with fondness and friendship  with  genuine respect and love I have always had for
you… That belief in you and all that you are and all that you will accomplish
in all that you have already accomplished…. Maura,  I am so full of pride and admiration when I
speak of you… and the amazing woman you have become… I smile  when I think of how you are so capable of
everything… you can bake and decorate sugar cookies for holidays…. Be a
successful lawyer,  wife and mother…
and  do everything…. I don’t know how you
do it all…. And on top of everything… 
you are  an amazing person and
sister…. Whether now…. Or when we were kids… you and Mattie  are the most 
amazing sisters anyone could have ever asked for…   I
could not have  wanted anything else in a
sister and I love you and miss you every minute of every day… when I wrote
the  “my gingerbreadman”  story 
in 2003…  you were one of my
inspirations…  …. An amazing.. woman  who was successful,  accomplished, 
well rounded and could do anything…. And you did everything…   your amazing and  I am so happy you  and Erick are together…. That you have  a beautiful family… and someday I hope you
all can  come to Naples again to visit
so  I 
can officially meet Ella…  and see
Caroline again…. You are a true success story Maura… and I am so happy for
you…  and your family… I really truly am
sooo happy for you….     

 I’ve thought of what I
would have changed….. If you could live your life over but know what you know
now perhaps going back to when we visited Kathy Young at Miss Porter’s… Or
staying in school in France… I keep wishing to erase all of this  but can’t and in reality there’s “no way out”
and no way to recover all that has  been
ruined … I can definitely say the story of my gingerbread man from 2003 has
never been realized  for me… nor any of
the hopes and dreams I’ve had for my life ever been realized… And I’m truly
sorry that no happily ever after will ever be in my future… but  knowing that your life  and family will be able to  have the 
most wonderful and happily ever after 
story  book ….. beginning ….middle
and ending…..  is just so amazing and
great… please make the most of the 
blessings you are given… and please treasure your children and your  husband .. your career,  your home your family and your friends…   I am truly happy for you…  and hope your blessings will continue  for your entire  life…

 I would not want to
miss one moment of time I got to spend with my family laughing or talking of
memories or experiences that I had as a child… If I could go back in time and
erase everything…horrid… I would change…

And despite the destruction of my life may you and your
family have a very Merry Christmas and a happy new year I do honestly hope all
of your hopes and dreams for 2013 will become a reality for you and for your
family and known my heart I love my sister Maura Ann Ziska, more than you’ll
ever know and realize God bless … I know this has been really long… but I
wanted you to know and say everything….

LUV, Mary Jean Ziska

5632 whisperwood blvd. 1601

Naples florida 34110

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