So excited to turn on the television an d 60 minutes is doing a whole episode on Saudi Aramco… and an interview of ali al naimi…. I met his son rami when I was  pretty young….  I had tried to locate him many times…. To see and speak with an old friend… to see how his life turned out.. like any of my old friends I wonder I always wonder if they are happy, if they are happy with the choices they made in their lives, if they  got to achieve all their dreams and goals… Gosh, the last .time i saw Rami, I was maybe 20 years old… and I went to Villanova to  go and visit… when he invited me to  come and visit…..he was a perfect gentleman, and  we stayed friends went out shopping, and sightseeing, and  it was a nice visit..   

The episode made me think of growing up in Aramco…  of the safely of the Aramco communities… no crime, the  mother Aramco who took care of  all the upkeep of the houses, the grounds, the  tennis, and the swimming pool… everything was taken care of.,, a great way to grow up…  I was going to ask my mom.. did they even pay an electric bill?  … I tried to call my mom when the show was being aired… but this is weird, I called and  no one answered the telephone number I dialed…but then I got a call coming in at the same time showing the same number that should have been my mom… so I tried to call again an still no answer… my conclusion I guess that my mom’s number has been spoofed…. And the  call in  showing her telephone number… again… there is a long list of scum that have been spoofing her number for a long, long time…. You know those scummy parasites I  have been writing about… the ones who  get a kick of  lying   to me…  stealing   business +….. conning me out of opportunities….of speaking with my friends, my family and  stealing from my home, from my life,… and that no one seems to be able to stop….

Also this wed….. an American fugitives.. featuring an Iranian person who did something… and guess what his alias id…. Yep “fred”…  I definitely need to watch that… 

but then i made the mistake when i saw that skype was on,,,, to call marion greagory on skype… and now i am in tears and almost threw up…. what’s with these idiots,, they make up stories and i get stuck with a different family  every day,,,,, i should have just stayed in school in france  when i was 18  i think i would have been over  not having my family if i had to deal with the loss since then…..maybe… but its been soo lonely…. and so many problems these ass holes have me go though that i shouldn’t have had to go through., and the mean women and girls who just get a kick out of making sure to give me the worst case scenario.. and   who must in some sick way enjoy seeing me cry,,especially on holidays…

this is what i miss the most:  i miss having real loving and caring people around me and in my life… genuine friends ….. I miss having   people  you can trust… when you call them to tell them anything … that you can trust them,, and  they won’t  hurt you…. won’t use information  against you,… that they actually want you to be happy and help  you to achieve your  hopes and dreams … i haven;t had those kind of scumm people in my life for years…. they will be nice for a short time  and then i realize they wanted some thing….they want me to be out of the way so some girl can steal my life… they want me to work hard so they can steal a business… they want me to go through hell so  their fake little  princesses get to enjoy the  life i should have been allowed to have….even when they wanted me to baby sit.. so they could  break and enter into my house., steal my clothes ..or shoes.. or jewelry… or opportunities,..like  the wedding   i dint get invited to because e i wasn’t allowed to  actually make any friends in  10 years…. 10 years without friends…  what  criminals imposter freak thought of that one….  but its not that i didn’t 5 years old…. i had my sisters who were my best friends   most of my life….  want friends ..  i had best friends from when i was wanted dinner parties and  going  out to have fun and  laughing .. i really miss laughing…,.   i wanted great and fun memories.. and great times and  great people that you can  depend on and who  just by being a part of your  life.. they make your life  better….. getting dressed up to go to  bridal showers.. or even planning what you can buy for presents…. going  shopping and going  out to lunch… and  having  a group of people who  wanted you to have a great life… not to lower your life style  and your life until you cry in the shower  because  over and over they ruined everything!every part of your life they ruined and no matter how hard you try to put it all back together ….  no one  helps.. and you still have a messed up credit score and  credit t report because of the identity thief, or  you still don’t  have the a cute decorated condo full of new furniture… you always wanted .. or you will never have the love of your life or…. have children and have what you ever wanted…  all because these selfish women and their bratty  bitchy scum need to steal and ruin other peoples lives… not raise others up …no these petty small minded scummy women   and men are the scum of the earth,,,,,they don’t want you to have anything better than them… or to have too great of a life… hey like  the cinderella step sisters and mean step monster….. right? 

because you actually love these people sooo much…I  used to love all of that… i miss telling  on the phone to people  who had nice stories…and  fumy jokes.. who you could  trust to  share your  daily life with,,,,

                                         I HAVE HAD ENOUGH!

  what scummmm  what  horrid disgusting scumm.   they are repulsive and  disgusting…to the core of who they are… i would never hurt them.. steal from them or  lie to them…. ever!….. but i will never go out of my way for any  of them again.,, i won’t  make extra spaghetti sauce  and share it or choc chip cookies and share them… bring by a  gift or lunch,,, or write a nice card or buy an extra  movie i thought  they would like…. ,,, I  won’t call to tell them  a great movie or show i think  they will like will be on the television.. or pick out  a gift  because  it makes me think of them,.,, i will no longer open my hear t to a bunch oh heartless  scumm whatever nationality or  whoever they are….   and if god willing  i am  able to WIN  the lottery the fla. state lottery…. i will not give them a dime …… i will not buy them a home, or a car, or a business.,., i will not  make their hopes and dreams come true… i will not  ever open my self up to their lies and  their deceit ..

Hey .but then  this is what psycho freak Gerard wanted right?t to separate me from my family…. to rui
n lives.. and businesses.. to  destroy all   that was great in my  family and  even in me…… but its  what most abusers want….  when they get you all alone   and weak.,,, just  ask karen kahel and  her bully friends .. that is when they pick on you more…when they smell a weakness….. they attack…. they make up lies and they attack….. they change  who you are,, and  who you wanted to be,,,,  oh maybe the bully-whore is in town stealing and lying and cheating someone  out of something…,.,  did i mention the  picture on her couter.. she must have stolen form  my sister maura..  anyway it looked like maura and looked like my dad…. wonder if  that was what karen kahels hired dad…. so when i was working  my ass off and saving money  and planning for my future… for going  back to school,,. at that time i wanted to  go to interior design school,,.. and traded in my fully paid off car for a lease,. that  then was taken away form me…,,  did the bitch start trespassing into my complex and into my home when/ screwing up my mortgage…. credit card accounts… and stealing my life….. my real life you criminal scum…….. mine…..it was my real life experiences….  I pray  their is justice and you don’t get away with it.,…you ruined lives on purpose….  you lie on purpose… today your dad is dying… no wait….. your mom….or aunt or friend….is dying .. no….now they want you to cry because they want you to believe  your going  to lose your home… no…. your going  to lose everything….. you….. you…..lie….. so I walk on eggshellls and  think the world is ending  at any minute … while you steal from my family,,,and live it up….  may god never have mercy on your souls…. you fake freaks..,,, i don’t give a shit if you are actors…. who the  hell gives you the right to make me cry? 

I miss  having a friends i can call and tell and share television shows,,,,, and  jokes…. goals, hopes  and dreams… and happy memories,….. and emails and happy stories instead of these  jelious petty stinnky  girls who only tell me about horrible situations,.,, this skype where the  lady put down her white hanky,,,, .t .,,,old me that and this is soo conditional…  if i don’t accept[t that they gave me a horrid deal and i have to deal with the worst case scenario..she throws her arms up in the air ,,,and proclaims that she is through with me,,, then she said i looked so dark..,,,( th e lights were off in my room) and  said something in Spanish.,,. i am not Spanish,… i am not.. Indian though i have been to India.. nor African even though we have gone on African safari…. oh i was going to call my mom and tell her that on the  prince Charles PBS memories special..they showed treetops… i was there…. but then i thought  why bother… it won’t be my mom.. it won’t even be a friend and  i will be completely disappointed  in the fake freaks on the phone,., who are playing  god and picking and choosing these  horrid experiences for me to go through,,,  why cruel and mean scum… and i am not Arab even though i have lived in Saudi Arabia… and i used to have a great family who was  nice and loved me… or maybe it was   just people who thought  they could use me…. isn’t that why some scum bag wanted me to lose weight? so from the back of my head  they can say i am somebody else….  that being me  mary jean ziska is somehow not allowed….  just like being  happy and  joyful is not allowed.. just  like having hopes an dreams is not allowed.. or dating or  falling in love or getting married.. not allowed…  who are these  psycho freaks?…. other than criminals and con artists who have been stealing my family ‘s possessions  for at least 10 years…. who lie and cheat and  steal …. idenities.. friends  and anything the can get there grubby little hands on..  like  the  bitch who wanted me to have a mom who was out at a laundry mat at 9:30pm at night on fri night .. not my mom….  but the little withc needs to lie  so she can steal my family and my life.. what a jelious bitch! and such a wanna be… probably the same girls who bulliedme on my birthday… and  who  steals my clothes and  jewlery and pictures…. so irish traveler… i know she must have blue eyes… men are a mix..,. kinda blueish kinda greenish at times… but the lady on skyp really blue eyes…. and it is a holiday weekend  and who ever was answering the cellphone of my mom… total  bitch and fake….must be her  ohio state relative who steals lives.,,, right? same group as  karn  kahel and her criminal friends…. this lady actually got off trying  to say i was spanish.. then  that i was mean or yelled a lot… hell yea… of course i am yelling at a person who is not my mom and is trying  to make me look bad…. that is  not my mom nor even a friend … but  she  imposter bitch must be  enjoying the weekend here… wonder  who she  is lying to  this time ….screwing  this time.. … 

I was trying  to figure it out…. who was the imposter stealing my life this past month …. or two months or 6 months…  some selfish girl who …. who what? needed me to do all the research on saving my home, on   saving everything…. who was the girl who   had a nice time on my birthday….  last year there was this song about brazil playing  when we walked out of the grill.. you know girl from  iponemia (sp?) and i think all the way back from when carla the girl from brazil who wanted  me to marry her psycho brother  so he could  get a green card… you know i ‘v told you about the girl who made me cry on Christmas eve when i missed  seeing or even talking  to my sisters….(2004) the girl who told me that my family thinks i am dead and i should  be happy with whatever family i get…..  yep… i think she  had her friend from brazil  steal my idenity then…. or coudl it be this time there was a girl in a white honda…. who went to play with  my niece and was leaving  when i was arriving  to play with her… and my “mom”   told me  actually told my niece   said something  wierd like ” yes we looked alike we looked exaclty alike…..) 

.when i last spoke with scott on skype  and he thought i was someone else,,, ( who ? the imposter bitch who has been stealing  my idenity and my life) ….. he told me he was an actor…. so actor or conartist…. or what are all these people?

what kind of a mother ever does or says that stuff.,. oh i forgot…. 1kings 3 16-28…. the fake moms   i think she is one of don kensigs fakes…. don kensig.. this guy who supposedly was a boyfreind of my mom.. a little criminals type who   wanted my mom’s business and her house,… and bullied me when we were in  colorado…and scott renshaw was the only person  to come  in and save the day…..  my aunt  Em  gregory…..told  me that at the wedding it was all fake…..  i don’t  know if she meant  all the people,., all the ceremony or what …..but when we were looking at pictures later.,,,, there were pictures that were taken in the  day time,,,,  when the wedding  was at night… and i looked taller…  

also another thing wierd,., when i was supposed to go to my aunt rita’s funeral.,,, it was beign held on a monday  not sunday,, and my  dad  had me sit up with my cousins,,,as if i was Nancy ( my cousin who died when  we were  25….)  instead of with  my dad and  my sisters….
woerd huh.. it was like it was staged and i was a prop,… and the same with all the horrid things i am suposed to go through… 

yes Nancy is lucky she is dead and not dealing with a bunch of liars and cheats who only make lives horrible…. 

so the lady on skype said she is reading these  blog posts….   i never hurt you i never lied to you i never made you go though any bad experiences….you are nothing  like a true mother… go read the bible… 1 kings 3:16-28….  you break my heart … and  ruin my memories of my mom… my mom loved me…. she didn’t just  want to  see me so she could  sneak some little whore into my gated community…. so some idiot boy could  get laid for the holiday  weekend.and so some  witch could  use my pool and the amenities….  are you one of the irish traveleres? one  of the gypsies criminal scum?… just  a con artist by trade or what?  a cold hearted  actor or is that one in the same a con artist/ actor??????  is my real mom dead?… don’t you have a soul? a conscious?   do you care that you ruin lives or hopes or dreams? do you car about anyone but yourself?  

I am soo sick of meeting crooks… or people who claim to be crooks….  where are the heroes?