Tow days of horrid phone calls… back to the bully girls on the phone.. my mothers telephone answereing machine has tow options for answering the phone and for the message yourreceive when calling… one has 4 businesses… the other one has 1 business… and the latest development is when i get a phone call from a caller id that doestn even have enough numbers to be a real telephone number… the caller id that shows up is: ( 26669-6687) see.. not enough numbers fro a real telephone number and not even close to my mother’s telephne nubmer or her cell mnumber… but the bully girls have been answering the phone of 239-598-1515 at times and 239-821-5515.. i started taping all the converstaions… as of late i have been told by these fake mom’s that i have people leave my facebook because they dont like me… ( a lie..) and i have been told that the college that i created on one wall of my condo by my den makes her think of the movie a beautiful mind… as if me createing a college to try to remind me that at one point in time i was really loved and had real friends… that instead of me putting up positive quotes on freindship and articles or memtoes.. that remind me that i used to be able to go on vacations and trips that wer fun.. or tha ti liek the ritz carlton or the 4 seasons.. or that ali al naimi had a son who i was friends with when i was 13-19… or the notes that mattie sent me with a present…that wer to remind me that i was loved.. that i was valued.. and the i actully mattered… nooooo
instead i had a horrid mom who wanated to make my work of art.. in to some bad and horrible
( horrible isnt exactly the right word… 
but wanted to make it into some way of makein g me look bd… and the coment about being a freind.. tha tyou have to be a freind to have a friend… my mom woudl have never said that to me… is she supposed to be the same person who gave me the gift of a little box hat said my daughter.. my friend.. for one christmas.. or the one who apreciated teh cards and book inserts i wrote.. and the perosn who i had over to ceelbrate mother’s day.. and birthdays.. and who actully used to be one of my biggerst fans.. ( and in that i mean she was someone who was supposrtive and loving and great…. who wanted me to have my hopes and dreams and wishes become a reality… and she helped me to acheive… to dream and to believe that all things were possible ….
yesterday and today it wasa a womwn or man or kid or who ever was on the phone… who waated or enjoyed cutting me down..until i cried.. who told me that no one wanted to hear about anything i had gone through .. that told me that since i have to talk loud on the phone because i use ti thorugh speaker phone… i was yelling and then when she got me really upset to where i was really yelling…or crying or even swearing… after getting me upset to that point… then would really tell me somethng mean..or say something horrible….
all done on purpose.. all done to make me look bad… and i was supposed to be quiet.. to allow anyone to say anything… to be poliet.. and let some person on the phone tell me that i was bad.. or no one liked me or tha i needed to make sure other people were made to be happy… making me feel that i wasn’t important… nothing like my mom… and when i todl them this… it didnt matter…
hoestly not at all like my mom… or my friend… not even like a freind..
and i should be able to talk to my real mom on teh phone.. and be able to share all my thoughts or feelings.. and all my daily activities..or incidents.. not have to censor any of it…..
i called up my old roomate.. who made me feel so much better.. and i left a message for gloria who usually will come in and will agree that my mother actually rallyy did loveme.. and that my sisters really did and still do love me… and that no the mean bully girls who say and do whatever to make themselves look good and try to cut me down to make them also look better… that they couldn’t possiblly be my mother on the phone… especilly when they make me cry or get me upset on purpose…
i am not some actor.. not fake and things people say or do actually affect me… and i am not going through any of this agian… bulling me to the point of wisheing i were dead.. instead of having to endire these women and groups who selfishly manipulate.. i am not goign throgh this agian… i cried last night and today missing my real family and real genuine friends … ones who actually love you…. for real…. very lonely and missing them a lot yesterday and today…. especially when you have horrible replacements… who make you miss the real and genuine people who actually love you.. and know you.. and make your life better… who tell you they love you… and mean it.. and who tell you that yoru other friends love you and actauly mean it as well….
and they need to quit mixing up my real family with all these other people…you no w starting with teh idenity theives in 2002….. who have used my life or my identity to get something for themselves…. like condo’s or homes… or cars or clothing or whatever… else they have stolen.. or used my life or my family or my friends.. to get for them selves…
real friends and real family members want to make their family and friends happy.. and share hopes and dreams… because they care… i mean really care…
ayway.. since i cant seem to actaully get anyone to listen.. i gues i will go back to blogging everything… agina… and keeping track so hoepfully the police will be to catch these spoofing / telephone bullies once and for all…..