yesterday was a really rotten day… started off alright.. went to  church at st. john’s catholic church… and saw Sean, a friend’s cousin…  he asked if i had gotten to see or speak with Julie…  since the last time i ran into him at church… which i hadn’t… i told him if i  hadn’t gotten any personal emails in forever… so wasn’t sure if my personal emails were getting through… to try to put a message through on the blog post comments for this blog.. mysearchforjustice.com  so we will see..  I’ve gotten some really odd messages on the posts..  don’t know if its just spam or some messages written to others… i mean messages saying someone is pregnant… ??? of course has nothing to do with any of my blog posts…  but weird i guess i used to get tons of great emails from my family and friends  now its just from businesses…. anyway… 

about the phone games.. were not fun.. waste of gas.. waste of time.. and not fun….     I spoke with my mother  about  going to the movies… i didn’t want to  see brides maids.. looked rally stupid.. so did hangover…  and the one good movie.. the movie with Mathew M. seemed o.k.  but she said that was too late so we compromised on something  borrowed… and the  2:55pm movie… i was still a bit undecided.. since the plans changed so much and i wanted to make sure that i actually had a nice normal mom who actually loved me…. who wanted to spend time with me… to go and spend time with her… and i never can trust that  made plans were always in my  best interest since who knows who the hell is on the phone…. ever since finding out about  spoof cards.. and the voice changing  technology… who knows…

anyway… i was told if i wanted to go .. to go and pick her up at her home at 2:45pm…. so i tried calling  form 2pm onward… and no answer… wierd since she had been answering the phone.. and wasn’t planning on going anywhere… but i went b y her  home.. and no car.. then i went  to the movie theater..and no “mom”.. i even had he woman allow me to go and check inside the movie theater and there was a row of 20 year old girls.. a few random people… but my mother was not there…  so then i started to think.. perhaps those girls where the  people on the  phone… making  up lies.. and plans wasting  my time.. my  gas… my life … were they breaking into my home?.. or just  stealing the babysitting jobs?.. especially for summmer when  there was scarisity of work… for those who hadn’t graduated from college..  or who had the  technology to  use all the  lies and deception… to get something for them selves..  who knows… 

so to test out the  theory.. i called my mother’s cell number from silver spot…  and got a person who was at home depot?????? now my mother first and for most wouldn’t  stand me up at the  movie theater without emailing me or trying to call …   and even though i had no clue who that person might be… we made plans to   go to the 5:00pm movie… so i came home and   then showered.. ate dinner…. or lunch… whatever… and then  went again to see if i had someone show up for the movie..  

so my mom  is /was supposed to have someone from the cable company check the phone cable lines……  is it one of the downstairs renters.. who are manipulating the phones….conversations.. and the lies that are told… or is it someone remotely doing it?… or  are there other options…. this i cant wait to find out…  but  it just reminded me of way back when i would get  panic phone calls telling me my sister needed money… or something horrid had happened to my mom.. this goes all the  way back to   of course Gerard.. and karen  kahel…